List of things to do...

These are the list of things I aim to do in the future....

1) Climb Mount Kinabalu ( I know some people say it's easy....)
2) Learn to swim (Currently I just know how to float .....in the sea only)
3) SCUBA Diving at all the famous spots in Malaysia
4) Open a sushi junction ( hey! remember! I learnt how to make sushi)
5) to become a great basketball coach (especially so far have not seen any ladies serious into doing this) and have my own team.
6) Provide help to people in need...
7) involve with more motivational camps..
8) Oh ya....and travel more...especially I dream to go to India...

Can anybody give anymore suggestions?

Alhamdulillah....its a miracle I guess

Just imagine, being "jobless" for so many months, sometimes make you think whether did you do a big sin until you are being punished in such a way or is it just one of the challenges from Allah that you have to face in life. Not only I didn't get any permanent job but not one interview between March till August. Then came an interview from a company which I couldn't even remembered I applied for the job. Phew! What a relief! Then again, after being promised to get a reply after a week, no news from them. No news at all. And there goes the cycle again. Suddenly, out of the blue, last week,I got 4 interviews , 4 days in a row. I went, and just focus to enjoy the session - 2 of 'em with locals and 2 with "mat sallehs" from US and UK. And "poof" like magic or miracle, I was offered all the 4 jobs. Unbelievable! Speechless! One of the job was the from the company who promised to return my call a month ago. Alhamdulillah.

I decided to take that offer. And guess what - not only am I satisfied with the salary that I am offered, they are also sending me for an intensive training in the UK for a minimum of 3 weeks to 45 days! C'est magnifique! This is something that I did not dream off. I was speechless. I wanted to cry, I wanted to laugh. Its a mixture of all the feelings. After all I've gone through for the past 3 months, I guess this is the best present, the best news I've ever received.I wasn't expecting it to be this great.

Told my cousin about it. She said for some people, there will always be a turning point of our lives. And sometimes, you have to go down, really down in order for you to go up and be succesful again. I agree. But the thing is I was drowning. I was at the stage when my family and friends were there trying to resuscitate me. And now, to all my friends out there who has been praying hard for me, I guess its also a great news for them. They are all excited and happy.

The person in-charge of the company told me, he was impressed with my experience. Alhamdulillah. And what amazed me was , he mentioned the 1st time he read my resume, he didn't even looked at the diploma or degree that I have. He looked at the secondary school I went to - which is STF. And he knows that STF has produced great people with strong personality.
This is the first time I heard an interviewer actually looked at which secondary school we came from. Then it made me wonder, does it have anything to do with the work I'm doing now? Yeah...its weird coz here I am, doing sort of like a "social" work to coach STF girls basketball and out there at the same time there is this person who sort of return the favour when I really in need of a job.

Not only getting a job,now, I don't have to think of anybody who might not allow me to go to UK. I am free to go, free to travel, free to concentrate on my career.

This time, things do happen for a reason and whatever we want to do, do it with sincerity especially in helping others.

Interviews...novel.....instant noodle

Yesterday, I sat in the CC for about 3 hours. yeah....3 hours....that shows that I got nothing to do.Actually, I had to do something. I need to find a job therefore I had to find internet access to go to Jobstreet. com and related websites to apply for jobs.

After applying for quite a number of jobs through email and internet, the 1st response I got yesterday was about 1 hour after I sent the email. I told the guy, that was fast. Really, super efficiently fast. He wanted me to go for an interview today. Unfortunately, the interview is held in KL and I am now in JB!!! Another company asked me to attend an interview this morning at 10.30. Well, to tell the truth, it was ok. It was satisfying actually. Much more better than the last one I attended. If I were to get the job, I might need to start working on Monday or Tuesday next week! That is fast! Then, I got another call , this time from KL, asking me to attend an interview on Monday next week. Arghh!!! This is tough! When you got no interview, then its nothing at all. When they want to call you, everybody seems to be interested to call you in at the same time. Well,lets just wait and see. I hope I can do both - meaning get a proper job and also keep coaching the girls at the same time.

Lets forget about that for a while. Last night, I spoke to a few of my girls. Sharing with them some of my personal, life experiences. Interesting. They made me realise how interesting my life has been for the past 3 years. About me and my family.The ups and downs. And it made me realised that it would be good if I can write. Yes, I mean if I can put it into writing, into a novel. Maybe I should try. Yes...I will....

Today, what shall I have for break fast?hmm..... I am looking forward to go out with Zalie this evening. I have been eating instant noodle for the past 2 days. Maggie mee for sahur and also for break fast. Do I have a choice? I guess maggie mee tastes much more better than the rice at the dining hall. Moreover, I don't eat rice anymore. I mean very minimal. Its not even my staple diet now. Talking about food, I used to be someone who likes food, who enjoys eating so much. But now I don't feel like eating. I don't even have cravings like I used to have. All my favourite food doesn't sound tempting anymore to me. Well, I guess that's what a broken heart can do to you , your mind and body.

I am excited. Excited because a friend of mine is coming back from UK tomorrow. I really don't know whether I will be able to meet him but, the thought knowing he is coming back for one month for holidays is good enough. If there's a chance, I would love to meet him again. Just to catch-up and have a chat. Like we used to do in UK.

Today is 18th October. To my ex-colleague, Zaihan, Happy Birthday to you. Hope you will achieve all the things you want in the future.
Today is also another person's birthday. The person who actually stole my heart 13 years ago. The person who was supposed to be my best friend, the one who was supposed to understand me and listen to me and my non-stop talking. But I guess, I won't be celebrating it with him anymore. Yes, it is sad.No more wishes, no more gifts, no more surprises for him. Time changes and I guess, people change too. But, Alhamdulillah, I have always believe in "things happen for a reason" and usually when things happen, there is always a "blessing in disguise". It might not be easy for us to take it , but then , life goes on.....like the title of my blog.
Some things will end. It might end in a good way, or maybe in a "not so good" way. Whatever it is, we must always be prepared. Not that we are being negative but we this is to prevent us from giving up when things did not happen as per what we have planned. We can only plan but........
Earlier, I was the person who will plan for every single thing. Everything must be proper and timed. But now, most of the time, I can't even decide until the very last minute. Just imagine, 2 days ago, I decided to sleepover at my cousin's in Singapore at 7pm. It was just a spur of the moment decision. Took the bus from Larkin station and headed to Singapore. Reached there at about 8.45pm because of the traffic jam. I feel different. To be able to do things, at the very last minute. Especially when it involves travelling to another country.It feels good.... really good.

Nasi Lemak International Kampung Baru

2 days ago, we break fast at the Nasi lemak antarabangsa in Kampung Baru. We....hmm...me and my ex-colleagues went out for "buka puasa". To tell the truth, I don't really fancy that nasi lemak. Its a bit dry and the sambal is not that nice actually. But since my friends wanted it and they love it sooooo much....majority wins. oh..and did I say we had "budget constraint"?. And I guess...its not the food but the company that makes the difference. After that we went to this place for some drinks. I had this excellent chocolate brownie dessert with white chocolate sauce....delicious. An excellent end to a filling dinner.
Oh ya..this morning, somebody called. Somebody from UK...at 5 am! I guess I was looking forward for the call but didn't expect it to be that early. Since I have trouble going to sleep, so, the call was not an issue.....and I enjoyed it coz they actually sang to me!!

This weekend I'll be going to JB to break fast with my basketballers. And I'll be there until Friday coz they will have their basketball match on Thursday. Got to prepare 'em for the match. So, I guess my next blogging session will be sometime next week!

Ramadhan....

I guess, now its Ramadhan, in a way, time moves slowly, really slowly from imsak till maghrib. But from 1st Ramadhan till now, 8th Ramadhan, I felt that we just started fasting 2 days back. Didn't even feel it has been 8 days. This year Ramadhan is different. Totally different. Can't imagine when it comes to 1st Syawal. To tell the truth, I'm not looking forward to it actually. Really not looking forward.

I think I'm gonna get flu..the symptoms are here....

Arghh...I hate this! Why must I get it now? Puasa is just around the corner and I need to be at the tip of my health to go thru puasa month. Or maybe especially for the first few days. Maybe my body is just too tired...too exhausted but my mind ignored the signs. I came back from JB on Saturday instead of Monday. The players went back to their hometown, so, with a few left, there was no point for me to stayback and train them. I just told them to do individual practise - just to improve their skills. Anyway...I couldn't stand the mosquitoes there. I think they know I'm not one of the students.

On my way back to KL, I dropped by at PDS Kem in Port Dickson - just to meet a good friend of mine. I wanted to ask his help to get me the forms for Train the Trainer for the next PLKN sessions. I heard they are offering it on a contract basis for the coming years - which means that anybody who's offered will need to sign a 2-year contract. We will then need to be in the camp for the next 2 years, even they are no trainees in the camp. The pay will be on a monthly basis. Well, time is running short. 2006 is coming by very soon.I guess if I have got no other choice, then I would definitely go for it. One, because I like the job. Two, staying in the camp means we don't have to bear any other expenses. Maybe I can rent out my apartment later. BUT, I will have to forgo my basketball training with the girls. Its something that is tough to decide. Yeah..the girls. The Dynamites. I want to see them succeed. In basketball and in academic. Especially that one particular girl whom I think when she grows up, she would turn into a very strong person - a very good basketballer.

Oh yeah, and if I take up the PLKN job, I might not be able to play basketball actively. I already have some plans. When I accompanied the Dynamites to the closing ceremony of their tournament last week, I met with my ex-coach when I was in Form 1. Amazing! Now at 72 years old,18 years later, he still remembers me! And , I found out that he is still playing basketball actively and going to Phillipines next month for the veteran championship! Wow! What an old man! I guess it is true. If you really want it, then go for it. He also gave my contact number to a team manager in JB, so that I could join his team for the next tournament which is going to be held sometime in January!

Sometimes, I think this is too fast. Too much. At the point when I am having a big change in my life, I have all these other opportunities. If I grab it and enjoy the moments, some people will say that, "Oh...you just went thru a big problem and you are enjoying life already? You seem to look like you don't mind about it at all" And if I don't , I will be the one who is going to sit at home, maybe crying, thinking that I shouldn't do this, I shouldn't do that and all sort of other things. And I should actually go thru a mourning period. Well, for sure, I think I'm not that lucky for the year 2005,one problem after another, but I have always been strong and steady, alhamdulillah.

I'm telling all my friends out there, I'm not going to be this person who regreted what had happened for this past year but I want to continue being me who is trying my best to stay positive, to stay focus and help other people out instead of just focusing on my problems. Things ALWAYS happened for a reason. Mesti ada hikmah disebalik apa yang dah terjadi.

And people, my friends, please support me. I need you guys. But then again......I might be thinking of all this because of this flu symptoms.........