Savings my allowance

Before I left for UK, my friend asked me, how much my allowance will be for a day. Well, I told her its going to be £10 per day. So a week I should be get £70. She said that is too little. Do I have a choice?
Because of my 'jobless' situation for the past 8 months, I only brought £40 to UK and hoping that I could get the allowance as soon as I arrive. I was just scared that £40 would not be enough to last me for the week. Yeah...no credit cards, ok. Then, on the 2nd day, we went shopping for food at Asda. I realised, £10 a day is a lot of money. If I cook, I repeat that if I cook at home, then I would only be spending about £20 per week. But then again, I don't cook and I love eating cakes and ice-cream (I have not started eating and buying chocolates yet, mind you), so I spent about £30 a week. The rest of the allowance? Hmm.....guess what? Just about 10 mts away from our apartment, there are shops or Outlets called McArthur Glenn. And its a really huge one. I am trying my very best to resist the temptation of shopping - especially when they have the Nike and Puma store over there BUT I failed. Last week, I bought 3 pairs of Nike basketball jerseys which has the LeBron James design and it only cost £5 each!! And today I went there again to just have a look, it seems that they don't have it anymore! Who can resist if the price is that cheap. Hehehe.... let's wait and see what will happen in the coming weeks.... Can I resist the temptation of going shopping??

Cold....but getting warmer.

My new job has beginning to show its 'busy -ness'. Well, actually I have not started answering calls yet but looking forward to it. Today - made myself busy trying to find new things to do. I just had to approach anybody in the office and ask them ' Do you have anything for me to do?' and the answer will be yes! Hmm....I know some of the things the trainer have yet to train us but who cares? I can always learn by asking and doing new things. If I want to wait until somebody come and show me.......that's just not me.

This Saturday, Insya Allah, if everything goes well, I will follow one of my colleague to fetch her hubby in Heathrow. And guess what - my brother and his family is also coming back on the same flight! Hopefully I get to meet them. Especially Ammar. How I miss him so much. Heard from my bro that Ammar's not feeling well since he arrived in Msia. Maybe the weather. The flight scheduled to arrive at about 4 - 5pm . Maybe we'll go for a 'window shopping' session in the morning. hehehe...yes..window shopping - I repeat. I am hoping to meet one of my ex-classmate in London coz most probably we need to park the car at her house.

I'm here..in Ashford, UK

Phew! At last....I get the chance to access the internet. But I don't have much time. I even did this without their knowledge. I am undergoing a 3 weeks classroom training. By this coming Sunday, I should be able to be online..on the real phone lines!!
2 days ago, it snowed here. Unbelievable! That was the comment from one of our colleagues as it usually does not snow this early. Well, maybe its the prayers from one of my colleagues - who has not seen any snow yet. Its cold here - below -5C but I guess I'm loving every minute of it.

I just love the weather here!!!!

Leaving in another 9 hours

Now, its 1.45am 14th Nov 2005. There's another 9 1/2 hours more before my flight to London. I'll be leaving at 7am to the airport. Arghh.....had to ask one of my good friend to send me there coz all my family members are not around. My mom? well, she's in Kota Kinabalu with my grandma and aunties and uncles for a wedding. Only coming back on the 14th evening. My sist? hmm...she has to start work tomorrow. So, she'll be leaving the house earlier than me at about 6.45am. I've got no choice. With a big and heavy bag, and not much money to pay for a limo , I've got no other choice. Thank you my friend. Thank you very much.

I'm happy coz I've packed my bags. I managed to keep it below 20kgs (I guess). I hope I don't have any issues with my bags. I'm looking forward to go there and start working. But I'm also sad coz I won't be able to be with my basketball team for their intensive camp training this December.I hope they will be ok. I hope they will be strong enough to go through it. I can only pray and hope for the best for them.

I guess, all of us have challenges and we have to overcome it to be a better person.

I'm excited!!!!

Can't wait! Excited! Scared! I can't describe it. I am leaving to Asford,Kent on the 14th Nov for my on the job training. Something that I didn't expect but I guess its a bonus. Alhamdulillah. And I can't wait to see my cute nephew too. I have to pay him a visit there. I must. I miss him sooooo much.

1st Syawal...

Here I am, at 2am, alone,in my apartment, on the 1st day of Aidilfitri, online with one of my chat friend. Suddenly I just feel like crying. I feel like there's something missing from my life. I just notice that I had lost my best friend. A friend who had always been there, everyday, to listen to my stories, my jokes, my nagging. I lost him when I found out I was betrayed. And I knew at that point of time, nobody could replace him. Not even he, himself.

But a friend advised me.... "move on and find another person". Will it be easy? Will there be anyone out there who is suitable?

Now I know why I have trouble sleeping lately. I guess its gonna be difficult for me to stop crying tonight......

2 am..the night before Aidilfitri

Here I am, at 2 am, one day before we celebrate our Aidilfitri - 2005.Couldn't sleep. Lately I have problem sleeping.Don't know why.Maybe I should start swimming, as one of my friend advised me.Hopefully it will make me tired and make it easy to fall asleep.yeah... I think I should try it out.

Aidilfitri...I still remember celebrating Aidilfitri when I was young...I mean much more younger. (I'm still young, ok) Me, my bro and my sist will usually celebrate our Raya at my grandma's place in Terengganu. We were always looking forward to it. Every year. Every Raya.Our mom will drive our car - 7 hours stretch. Sometimes without a break in between. That's my mom.

Celebrating Raya here in Shah Alam compare to Terengganu, is very different. Shah Alam for me is more of a city - not a "kampung". Everybody will return to their "kampung" when it comes to Raya.And you'll see the whole town is empty. Quiet. Even the shops will be closed for a few days. Nothing to celebrate.
We will all get excited as Raya gets near. Each of us had at least 2 pairs of new "baju kurung" or shirt and trousers for my brother. 7 hours stuck in the car - seemed ages for us. Just couldn't wait to reach our grandma's place, to meet our cousins, aunties and uncles. I guess, we had always been the ones they can't wait to meet , coz we were the only family members who stays quite a distance. Don't mention about the "duit raya". Our pockets were never empty.

Now...everything seems different. 20 years later....my bro is in UK with his family. He has been celebrating Raya there for the past few years...I sort of lost count.My sist - she's pregnant now with her 1st baby coming in a few months time. She celebrates Raya, sometimes in Terengganu, sometimes in JB. But this year it will be in Shah Alam as her hubby has to work on the 1st and 2nd day Raya. They are only going back to JB on the 3rd day. Well, as for me, this is my 1st Raya celebrating alone and back to single life. Its tough, its sad. First, I planned to go back to my grandma's place, but unfortunately mom had bought her ticket. So, now plan B is to follow my sist to JB and later go to Singapore to meet my cousin again.

Well, that's only a plan. We can only plan and wish for the best. And we don't know what's the best in store for us until it happens. Sometimes the plans didn't come out as how we wish it to be , but just be positive, its always for the best.

To all my Muslim friends and families out there, I just want to wish "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri". May all of you have the best ever Raya celebration with your love ones, no matter where you are.