A visit to the police station

Yesterday, I took these photos of my peaceful office during night shift. Our night shift is from 11pm to 7am. As some of my friends know, it is located in a strategic location in Bangsar.

That was yesterday. This morning something happened. One of my male staff, who was on his break, smoking just outside of our office door, was robbed. 5 men approached him and 4 of them had 'parang' as weapons. 2 of them held his right and left hands. They asked him to give in his wallet, mobile phone, cash or car keys . Fortunately for this guy, he was just having his MP3 player with him - nothing else. They did a 'body search' on him to confirm what he said was true. Then they took his MP3 player and his cigarettes.

Then, they asked where was he working. Thank god he did not say anything. He knew, if he were to tell them, they might force him to come in to our office. Worst things might happened.

I brought him to the nearest police station to make a report. I'm glad that nothing happened to him. Alhamdulillah.

But that gave me wake up call - I need to be more strict with my staff to ensure their safety.I guess no more smoking outside or even a 7-Eleven quickie after this.

Another experience- while we were in the police station, a police van arrived. They brought in about 10 girls who were chained. I heard they were saying these girls were 'captured' somewhere in Brickfield. They don't look like locals. I usually watched these scenes on the news.I guess it was my lucky night too.

p/s: I can't imagine if it was me. I can't imagine losing something precious. Insya Allah hopefully nothing bad would happen in the future.

Pink ciggy and a mistaken identity

Call me naive, call me 'katak bawah tempurung', but cigarette with a pink colour box and smells like strawberry? Hmm.....

The best part is, I think the marketing is meant to attract ladies , (or maybe young school girls) however, the person who bought and brought this in to the office was a male staff of mine. Now I wonder...is it meant to be like a code or something...

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I received an email from somebody few weeks ago, who claimed to come across my details from the net.; maybe friendster, facebook or this blog. She emailed me with the interest to get to know new friends and to improve her english. Well, I replied with a short one too saying that I'm ok with the idea.
Only today I received another email from her.This time it is a long one. Seems that her english is difficult to understand. But this is a portion of what she wrote;



......I still do not know much, but I very much try.And consequently I wish to communicate with men who profess an islam.My final The dream and desire should have family of love. Anything is more important than It for me now. Fairly, it as though I start to live for the sake of you. Many men wrote me letters and continue to write letters. But I Has chosen you. In a shower you more approach me, than other men. And it The truth. Unfortunately, I was not happy completely and many people Played with my heart and my feelings. I hope, that I have written There is enough information on and on the character. And now I want To know it is more about you and as well we approach the friend for the friend...........

OMG!!! She thought that I am a 'man'! I didn't think I gave her that idea in my short reply to her email earlier. And if it is true she came across my details somewhere on the net, then she should have know that I'm a woman. This, coincidently reminded me of the post which Bakawali wrote on Evolution of Love just yesterday. And yes, I agree that we can make the outcome to be positive or negative. It depends on what we are looking for, what we are expecting for.


From YM and my blog, I met new friends. Well, I also did go out for a few blind 'meet'. I never call it as dates as I have always wanted new friends, not more than that.
Anyway, that was also how I met Habibi. Alhamdulillah.


p/s: I'm having problem sleeping this few days. With working night shift the whole week, this is not helping me at all.

I miss my date(s)

I'm still in that mood.
Not depressed.
Not happy but not sad too.

This few days, I feel there is a big part of me is missing from my life.
I keep telling myself to always remember that he loves me.
Even though he's not physically with me, his daily calls and regular sms makes me feel as if he's here, somewhere in M'sia, working hard, and will come back to see me soon.
As he promised.

I know, and I trust that he will keep his promises. Insya Allah.

But as a human who has feelings,
I miss him so much.

To some of my friends out there, not that I don't want to go out with you guys,
nor I refused to chat like we used to earlier,I just want to have sometime on my own.
I am still not ready yet to go out and meet people other than my colleagues - who do not know much about what I've gone through.
I have this thing inside me which ,the moment I open my mouth to share the good memories,
my eyes start watery. (that explains why I sent an sms meant for Habibi to a good friend ; I couldn't see who I replied to- damn embarrassing!)
I hope you guys understand.

Anyway, thank god I'm working night shift the whole week. I hope to sleep the whole day. I'm also taking this opportunity to replace some of the 'fasting' days. I have 7 more days to go. That's a lot!
And Alhamdulillah, I have these sweet 'dates' for break fast - which reminds me of the sweet memories.


p/s: I feel like eating sate - we had that as our dinner the night before he left. Yup! I miss you a lot, Habibi.

I'm crazy for mushrooms

Last night, after work at 11pm, I rushed home. Not to go home exactly as I don't usually rush home , but to rush to Tesco to get some groceries for my empty fridge. As I felt the urge of making something for dinner (yup, I still have not purchased gas for my stove but I could do some magic with my microwave and oven!) And Tesco opens until 1am on Saturdays....just perfect with my work schedule.

After going one round of window shopping, I ended up in the vege section. I saw they had this 'Reduced to Clear' section - my favorite section on the floor. This is where they sell things at a reduced price as it might have been physically damaged or maybe it is almost near to expiring.(near means not expired yet, ok!) Sometimes you could get yogurt as low as 69sen per cup!

A mushroom lover I am, without taking a long time to think what I'm going to do with it, I grabbed myself these:

This is the fresh white button mushroom at RM1.60. Other than cooking it, it can be eaten fresh- just wash it and pop it into your mouth. It would make a great snack.

Then I grabbed these too. It is the Portabello mushrooms at RM1.42. (NP is at RM8.00++)These would turn into an excellent breakfast menu for me!

And grabbed these also; the Euro mushrooms (looked like button mushrooms but its black) at RM2.00. I really love all these mushrooms.

And this was what I had last night for supper, addition to my usual 'Mi Sedaaap' Sambal goreng.Portabello mushrooms with butter, garlic, pepper and salt- baked.

And in my fridge, there are 3 more packets of mushrooms waiting to be cooked....

What a good bargain. What I could see there was only a minor physical damage on the mushrooms. To get all those mushrooms at that price is really, really excellent.

Got to think of what to make with the rest.

Hmm...mushrooms for supper, breakfast, lunch and dinner.


p/s This reminded me of my high-school mushroom 'TOING'

This morning...

"Good morning", I wished my husband and gave a kiss on his forehead. He did the same thing too. Kissing me on my forehead and both cheeks. I held his face in my hands, looking directly into his eyes and said, "It's a brand new day. We got to wake up and do some nice things today".
He replied," Okay, let's start off with our Subuh prayers first. Come."

He pulled me to the bathroom to get our wudhu'. We then proceed to the prayer mats and he lead the solat. His voice,saying out the readings and 'ayat' from Quran, gave me this sad feeling inside.

Finally, he gave the 'salam' and turn around to for me to take his hands. I close my eyes, held his hand and kissed it and he kissed my forehead. And suddenly I heard the alarm went off. Oh! we might have woke up earlier than the alarm, I guess.

I opened my eyes , and saw the ceiling of my bedroom. No hands to kiss, no husband, no prayer mats...nothing. The last thing I could remember was I was still awake at 3.30am.

It was just a dream. A sad dream. But it was so real. How I wish it is real.

Now...it is a history, it is a memory

Today is the 25th Oct 2007. 16th October was 10 days ago. It has now,become a history. It has become a memory. It has become a part of my life story.

I don't know how to put it into words. Maybe not now. Maybe in the future. Maybe I can't put it into writing at all. However, pictures never fail to remind me of the good times I had.

Thanks to Allah for allowing me to have this great time. For the future,I can only hope. I can only pray. Takawal to Allah.....as Habibi always say.

More pictures can be found here and here


p/s: I know I will be ok. Its just that,....it is not that easy.

Growing old......together

I went to The Gardens a few days back and saw this old couple sitting together on one of the sofa.At one glance, the couple was just sitting down. Looking at them closely made me 'U-turned' to snap their picture . They were sitting down with their eyes close, maybe not sleeping, his hands were holding hers on his lap.

They looked so much in love. They look so peaceful.

I have always love to do that.Just sit down. Hold hands. Enjoy the view or just close my eyes.

Will I ,....ever get the chance to do that, again?


p/s: Tomorrow is Tuesday, 16th October 2007. Just for MY record.

Ramadhan 2007 and its memories

Well, as per my posting on Different year, same feelings on the arrival of Ramadhan, I had issues handling my emotions when Ramadhan arrives, now it has left us.

When I wrote the above posting, I did not know that this year's fasting month is going to be different from the previous years. It did start off badly - I was really, really down. But Alhamdulillah, it got better and better.

Reading back all my postings for this year's Ramadhan, it was definitely different. I got to know and meet new friends. I did things which I didn't think of doing it all. Not only that, I don't know why, Habibi has also given me more and more attention, as days go by. I agree with the saying " When you love somebody, you have to let him go. If he returns, then he belongs to you" .I did that at some point of time.

The 'peak' event was the buka puasa I had at Uptown. It was great as it combined 2 groups of friends:- my basketball friends and the friends I knew from my blog. Jazz didn't make it as she had to leave for BP that night. Or else, it would be a meeting from 3 group of friends!

We started off the evening by doing a simple medical/blood pressure test at a nearby pharmacy. Just to take precautionary measures incase anybody is not allowed to eat high cholestrol food.;-)
I looked stressed as my reading was really high - danger zone!! But as per Bakawali (our medical advisor), I needed a 2nd test to confirm as I was walking fast earlier before meeting them And this affected the results. Hmm........it worries me even though I know before this I do not have any problems with my health.
The buka puasa dinner was attended by Hazyr and BF, Ardy, Guile,Bakawali and SeaDemon. We had a great feast despite of the drinks we ordered arrived 15mnts after buka puasa. Nasib baik tak ada orang yang tercekik. With huge dates brought by Ardy, Ah Keong's YTF, some fried kuey tiow, sotong goreng tepung, fried fish with soy sauce and ginger(sedap!), nasi goreng, black pepper chicken chop and home-made choc chip cookies and tart nenas courtesy from Bakawali, topped up with great old timer jokes from SeaDemon(I had to write this, old man...hehehe) - it was really great.
We then adjourned to Secret Recipe - as some people were craving for its chocolate indulgence, and their award winning Lamb Stew. Hmmm.... we didn't actually have lamb stew as everybody was full by then.It was a great opportunity to get to know each other better. Especially some of us complained that it is difficult to get our circle of friends to grow - now is defnitely the right time!
My night was ended with the sinful Oreo Milk shake. Yum..yum....This is the perfect drink to release all PMS related symptoms and unnecessary feeling of depress and sadness.

I left Uptown by wishing Selamat Hari Raya to all - with a great feeling. This year's Ramadhan, is definitely something that I did not expect at all.

I hope we will have the chance to be here, in this world for the next Ramadhan, Insya Allah.

And I hope too, this would be a start of a great friendship - THE LORDS OF THE FOOD.

Raya smiles

Without enough sleep - this is my Raya smile. Thanks to the small girl, I had to smile too!

Happy Eid Mubarak

Had a bunch of sms to my phone starting from after Maghrib just now. Wishing me and 'family' a Selamat Hari Raya. Family...hmmm.......do they mean my family as in hubby and kids or me and mum? Anyway, thank you to all. Selamat Hari Raya to all of you too.

The worst part - is getting an sms from my ex, a longggggg one, asking for forgiveness on all his mistakes...AND....asking for a 2nd chance.

My reply- only one. To Habibi saying I miss him. Very much.

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Its now 3.45am and I'm still not sleepy. I left office just now at 1.30am , went to A& W and had supper - alone. Just because I didn't want to be alone at home.There was also no bear to accompany me to eat.The Mozza burger tasted like 'tyre' and the float tasted like plain rootbeer.

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Habibi: How are you habibati?
Habibati: Alhamdulillah, I'm ok
Habibi: Did you just arrive home? (it was 2.30am)
Habibati:Yes.
Habibi: I thought you did not want to do OT tonight.
Habibati: I thought the same too. But I didn't feel like being alone at home.
Habibi: Don't say that habibati. You are not alone. Just remember I'm always with you. I'm always in your mind and in your heart. And you are always in my mind and heart too. I wish I could be there celebrate Eid with you.
Habibati: (speechless and choked..trying to prevent from crying)
Habibi: Habibati my love, promise me you will just think of the good things. Insya Allah we will be together.
Habibati: Ok....I promise
Habibi: Happy Eid Mubarak . I love you
Habibati: I love you too.Happy Eid Mubarak....

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2 hari sebelum Raya...

Too much to handle

I thought as the day goes by
nearer to the real day
everything should be ok
I should be excited and happy,
but last night
I broke down again

The reason was
We talked about the coming Eid
I asked whether he had bought everything already
He said yes
And he asked me back the same question
As usual my answer to everybody who asked
I have not bought anything and do not plan to buy anything
As I just don't have the heart for it since 2 years ago
And I'm ok with that

But then he said,
"I'll give you some money .Go and get yourself a nice dress to celebrate EID.And when anybody asked or said its nice, you tell them that it is special from Habibi "


I could only cry.
And when I woke up this morning
I find myself crying again
While listening to Anuar Zain's song

'SELAMAT HARI RAYA '

Selamat menyambut hari mulia bersama orang dan keluarga yang tersayang

Semoga selamat pergi dan selamat kembali

Insya Allah.

p/s: For some of you my friends out there, I'll see you when I see you.
I'll be working through out Raya and will be away for sometime right after raya.Any invite for open house, don't forget to sms me, ok! hehehe... Any pasta or local food would be good.(but I'm not ready to eat the traditional S.African food yet)

Non parlo l'italiano

Today, as usual, part of my job is to flirt around with the drivers. Did I write flirt? I meant talk to the drivers and get them to do something in addition to what they are doing. (bodek and flirt goes well together..hehehe....)

I was talking to this guy from Kilmarnock and suddenly we were heading to this conversation ;

R: Before I let you go, can I ask you something, my dear (yeah..that's how they like to call me -perasan sat)
Me: Yes sir...why not
R: Are you a Malaysian; I mean really from Malaysia?
Me: (oh no, not again!!) Yes, I am. (Couldn't help myself from laughing). Why? Do I sound like a South African?
R: No my dear. You sound like you are Italian or Spanish.You don't sound like any of your friends that I've met.

OMG!! Now this guy is saying I'm Italian or Spanish.
Life has been very interesting for me lately.
From South African, to Italian, to Spanish ......to an Arab soon...hehehe.....



p/s: Habibi, don't worry ok. I'm loyal to you...;)

Good and bad

I have always wanted to open another bank account - so that it could motivate me to save money somewhere away from my 'salary' acount...kononnya lah...hehehe.
Almost opened a HSBC, but tak jadi. So yesterday, ended up opening an account with this bank.

I'm impressed with their canggih system and fast service. I hate going to the banks because they are slow(that explains why I never walk in to a Maybnk anymore), but this one was really fast. Had to fill in minimal forms (I hate to write!). What they do is, if you have a MyVi..oops..I mean MyKad, you just need to go to the numbering machine. They will put in your MyKad and meanwhile give you a queue number and a short and simple form to fill in.

So, when they call your number to the counter, most of your details in MyKad, is already in the system. The form you need to fill in cuma mailing address and signature. Best giler!! And they also issued me my new Visa Debit card.

All that was done within 15 mnts. I love this bank lah!!

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After work, I wanted to buy a loaf of wholemeal bread since the one in my freezer which I bought 2 months ago dah habis. (I learnt this from my brother - you can freeze anything you like ) .Malas going to the one which is walking distance from my office, I decided to drop by at the 7 Eleven in Section 2 near my mom's place. Saje , nak round2.
When I arrived and walked towards the entrance, I saw a notice placed on the door.
It seems that effective from few months back, the doors will be closed from 1am-6am. The transactions need to be done through the small window at the side. its like ordering McD drive thru but you can't actually drive thru it.

Kelakar nya! And also frustrating as I thought I could do some shopping around. I asked what had happened. The boy said some bad things happen quiet frequently and they are trying to avoid it to happen again.

What surprises me is this is in Shah Alam! We are talking about Bandaraya Shah Alam. Bandaraya yang tak ada panggung wayang! Bandaraya yang tak ada kelab malam! And this is supposed to be a safe city.

Even the 7 Eleven in Bangsar, near my work place, does not do this. If they have to make the police make their rounds more often, then do it! By closing the doors of 7Eleven during certain hours, it just shows that this city is not a safe place anymore.

Ketam gemuk dan rakan-rakan

Yesterday, was a long and tiring day. Alhamdulillah, it ended in a great way, with friends and good food (again!) - nothing could go wrong other than my bad PP and grumpy mood which keeps tagging along.

My sister called and asked me to join for buka puasa at mom's place however I've made plans with friends. I just dropped by and see what's cooking as I thought I could volunteer to be the 'taster' to make sure everything tastes good.(hehehe......excuses.)

While I was there, managed to steal some 'shots'.

This is Dhia Sarah. She is almost 20 months now. When I said smile and wanted to take her picture, she actually danced for me!
She really knows what a camera can do. Next, she came and sit on me and wanted me to take a picture of her again- so here it is me with Dhia.
While everybody was busy outside watching TV, here I was in the kitchen trying to see what I could help myself to. Bibik made buah melaka ; we called it onde-onde. It was too sweet for me.
She also made 'karipap'. She made a lot of it - a big portion was being frozen for future use. It was good.
She also made 'ayam goreng berempah'. Huh!! Power giler! Rugi rasanya tak berbuka dirumah.
No...this is not popiah or the appetiser.The regular basketball gang; Ryzah, Rizal, Ardy, Itik, Ska and myself had planned to go to Fatty Crab in Taman Megah for buka puasa. It was a bad start to the dinner for me as there was a pasar malam that made the whole traffic bad-had to go few rounds to get a car park. And when I almost got one, I also got a 'flash' by another driver as I actually entered a 'Jalan Sehala' way! Why didn't he flash the person before me???hey !Not fair!! You do not want to fool around with a person who PMS, ok!!!
We had the roti bakar to eat with the yummy sweet, sour and spicy sauce. We also had nasi goreng - but too hungry until totally forgotten to take the photo.Hehehe....
And this is the main reason why some people are willing to drive all the way from Kajang to this place. This is their famous dish. We had nearly 5kgs of this!! The last time we had this was about 2 years ago - that was a long way back. The crab was really good until, without being noticed, I managed to take a pic of this person who was one of the patron at the restaurant last night - Bring me more crabs please!!!!!

The outing was extended by going to Big Apple donuts again for the 2nd night in a row.Yup, you read it right. The day before, I was also there with Ardy and SeaDemon ,also after a sinful buka puasa. They are really making good money from people like us and our friends!! They should give us some incentive here.

The night ended perfectly by talking to Habibi for almost an hour. For some special reason, I'm so excited!! Let's see how things go by, ok?

Horoscope 2007 review

I'm trying to stay relax and wait for this painkiller to work its wonders before I could manage to go back to sleep. Too lazy to watch the TV, I went thru all my posting since January this year.

I came across the posting about my horoscope reading for this year which is very interesting.
In a summary, this was what I've commented on each planet readings:


The Eclipse Factor
The Lunar Eclipse on March 3rd brings an end to a source of income. This is a good opportunity to find a more rewarding line of work, one that allows you to spend more time on intimate relationships.
Notes: Spend more time on intimate relationships? Hahaha.... But I do hope for an inheritance or a grant though..It would really help.

The Mars Factor
Make time for your favourite friends and hobbies, even if it means risking an employer's disapproval. Work obligations will take up most of your time between January 16th and February 26th; spend your free time getting in shape. Take the lead in a relationship during the entire month of March and the first week of April; your authoritative attitude will prove most seductive
Notes: I don't think I want to go against my employer's disapproval. In regards to relationship, again? This must be a realtionship year for me. Looking forward for spending more time with friends though.


The Jupiter Factor
2007 promises to be one of the most fun-filled years you've had in a long time. Romance, adventure, creativity and laughter will fill your days and nights. If you're looking for love, you could find it at a sporting event, cultural event, or rollicking party.
Notes: 'Most fun-filled years I've had a in a long time? Wow! I guess I am looking forward to this year then. I think this part is true as I have had fun for the past 4 weeks! Well done January, 11 more months to go!

The Uranus Factor
Your sex life continues to sizzle with excitement. Impromptu lovemaking sessions can happen virtually anywhere and at any time. Just take care to guard your health during such trysts!
Notes: Ohhh! I really need to improve on my financial. Sex life? Excitement? Hahaha....This is funny...

The Neptune Factor
If you're single, you could meet the person of your dreams at a house of worship or cultural gathering.
Notes: Meet the person of my dreams at a cultural gathering? Oh no!! It might be a real tradiotional guy then...

The Pluto Factor
Intense love affairs continue to colour your world throughout 2007.
Notes: This is the part I can't stop myself from laughing."Intense love affairs continue to colour your world throughout 2007". Wow! it sounds very fun and interesting. Let's wait and see.I would love to fall in love again.


Well, I don't really believe in horoscope or numerology readings but it is kind of weird when I read back the posting and I read again the comments which I had written in regards to it. I really made fun of the readings ...but....
It just seems that most of it are true. Not all...but most of it.


Isn't it scary?

Lelaki ini yang mencintai ku...

I love this guy.
Without fail, listening to his voice makes my heart melt again and again.
I missed his 'live ' perfomance' but thank you to YouTube, here it is.







And this version is without music.....



p/s :This reminded me, once, Habibi sang me a song in his language - it made me cry. Even though I did not understand a word, the melody was so sad.
Seems that it was a love song....

New collage again

I changed the main picture on my blog again for the ......can't remember how many times for this year already. Couldn't sleep and didn't know what to do.

The background photo was taken at the Bukit Kluang beach :-I actually wrote Habibi's name on the sand, which is now hidden by the other photos.

The 1st photo is the drink named as 'Perfect Balance' . It tastes like it's named, made from Kiwi fruit, rambutan, and lime juice . It has all the taste of sweet, sour, salty and bitter.

2nd photo was taken during my recent trip to Mount Kinabalu at 7.30pm on my birthday.

3rd photo was also taken at the Bukit Kluang beach with my cute and adorable Ammar.

Last but not least, the 4th photo was taken during my trip to one of the islands near Sipadan-Mabul 4 years back.

Its already 7.30am and I am still not sleepy.Breakfast anybody?

I can't believe my results

I was having this really bad montly 'PP'. I can't sleep, I can't lie down, I can't do anything. Even eating or drinking hot drinks does not work in reducing the pain. The ibuprofen I took 2 hours ago does not seem to work anymore.
So, I surfed and realised it has been quite sometime that I last posted a 'blogthing' test. And saja gatal, I took these tests.

How Much Sex Appeal Do you Have?

You Are 63% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

You're an Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantityYou've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks offAnd you're adaptable, giving each partner what they craveWhen it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

And out of hundreds of questions which you can find here, I'm not actually sure why I choose these questions. Maybe....just to find out. But then again, it might or might not be true.

New reading,new workouts

Last night, I bought SHAPE. No, not a new body shape or anything to do with any parts of my body but the magazine which has been out in the market for quite sometime.

Ardy -nope, I did not buy it because of Sasha Bash1r ok!Well, I bought it because I got attracted to one of the topics covered which is "Your best body at 20,30 & 40".

After flipping through it, for a magazine which is RM5.60, it has quite a lot of information. For somebody who could not afford those more expensive 'exercise and health' magazine, this would be a good option.

One of the interesting article I came across is:


Healthy relationships - One move to bring you closer
The intense emotions- and mind blowing sex-common in new relationships fade overtime. How to keep it alive? You definitely have to work at it. In the Miraval Resort & Spa in Tucson, Arizona, during the Partners, Pleasure, and Passion workshop, Lana Holstein teaches this simple exercise called Yab-Yum, from Tantric Buddhism, for renewing a connection. Sit in your partner's lap (clothed or nude) facing him and wrap your legs around his back.Close your eyes, put your foreheads together, and breathe in unison for 2 minutes.

So, go ahead and try!!

I also came across these exercises which is suitable for the age 20,30and 40's. I don't have a gym membership. All these while my exercise are only playing basketball and daily crunches in front of the TV. So, now, I shall add more simple exercises such as below to my exercise regime. (kononnya). I know it's impossible to go thin for me, but I would love to be fitter in order to age gracefully and powerfully...hehehe.....






There's just a problem, I need to get that big BALL. Hmmm.....

Confirmed! My new nationality

Last night, I had an interesting conversation with a customer.

Me: Welcome to XXX Ltd, how may I help?
The lady: My name is Flora. Can you help to check on my shipment please.
Me: May I have your reference number please?
(The conversation went on with me trying to solve customer's issues)

Me: Is there anything else I could help you with?
The lady: May I ask you something, my love?
Me: Yes Maam.
The lady: Are you from South Africa?
Me: Hmm....(chuckling away) No maam.
The lady: Why are you laughing? This is a serious question. Please answer me. Are you from South Africa?
Me: No Maam. I am from Malaysia.
The lady: OOh! You sound exactly like a South African.What's your name, love?
Me: (not again!) My name is Saf1na.
The lady: Are you married my dear?
Me: (nak tahan ketawa....) No, I'm not
The lady: Good then.I have a son who is not married yet.I will inform him about you then. I'll get him to call you my love.
Me: (I had to mute the call sebab tak tahan nak ketawa)....

God!! Not only that I look like a South African, I sound like one too? Helppp!!!

Killing time softly

Last night, I was feeling restless again. Maybe because since I worked Night shift this past few days and I had to buka puasa alone at home, I felt bad. And last night, being the 3rd night, I knew I had to do something.

Off I went to The Curve before I went to office. First-I bought donuts.Yes! 12 of them. Not only for me, but I bought for my entire team too. Once in a while, I feel that they deserve something from their boss.
And then, since it was still too early to go to office (I'm de-motivated to arrive early nowadays, not like those days), I decided to buy a magazine and lepak somewhere while listening to my 'M' and 'cuci mata'.
So, here I was for 1 hour, reading this 'new' (new for me!), kind of interesting mag , at the same time hoping a good looking guy comes and play the piano just for me.(berangan lah kejap)

I managed to have a good time on my own.
Until.....
Habibi called....for the 3rd time for the day. That was a surprise.
Listening to him saying , "I love you" from thousand of miles away, made my eyes teary again.....

Woman's issues

My graph is going down.
Nothing can make me feel good.
Nothing can stop it coming.
Not even a bar of Toblerone Fruit and Nut which I 'kidnapped' from an office mate
Not even a bar of 500gm Cadbury Almond which another officemate gave to recently
Not even a box of Wall's Popper ice cream which I got from Tesco
Not even a box of 6 donuts. (what esle...the BIG A)

Hmmm....ok...I think the donuts might help. Better get going now before it closes.

I also want a BIG HUG!!!!!! (coincidently Habibi called and said how he wish he could be with me now to help me go thru it. Dang! How did he know that I'm down? )

p/s: To all my blogger friends who left comments, sorry there might not be any respond from me this 2,3 days.

Dari jauh ku pohon maaf

Without realising, today is the 20th of Ramadhan. That means there will only be 10 more days to go before we celebrate the 1st of Syawal. Wow! How fast time flies.

For the past 2 years, the arrival of Syawal brings sadness to me.Not as sad as in Ramadhan but there is still a part of me who misses the moments of celebrating it with the one I love. Thinking of the good old times. And to avoid that feeling, lately, I've been only listening to CDs in the car instead of the radio. I avoided to listen to any Raya songs.

One day, accidentally, I tuned to Hotfm and there it was , my evergreen Raya song on air.


Dalam dingin subuh hatiku terusik
Kenang nasib diri di rantauan
Bergema takbir raya menitis air mata
Terbayang suasana permai desa

Rindu hati ini inginku kembali
Pada ayah bonda dan saudara
Tetapi aku harus mencari rezeki
Membela nasib kita bersama

( korus )
Hanya ku sampaikan doa dan kiriman tulus ikhlas
Dari jauh kupohonkan ampun maaf
Jangan sedih pagi ini tak dapat kita bersama
Meraikan aidil fitri yang mulia

Restu ayah bonda kuharap selalu
Hingga aku pulang kepadamu

( ulang korus )

Restu ayah bonda kuharap selalu
Demi anakmu yang kini jauh

This song has always been my favourite and without fail, makes me sad. Even before things happened to me. Just that when things happened - automatically it makes me feel sadder when listening to it.

But this time, when I listened to it, I felt different. I didn't have that sad feeling anymore inside of me. I didn't even feel anything. It was just a normal Raya song.It is still my favorite but there's no more sadness to it.

Maybe this year, Syawal would give me a different meaning.
Maybe this year, I am going to celebrate Syawal differently
Maybe because this year, somebody really special is coming to visit me in Syawal. Somebody who has helped me to go through the tough times for the past 8 months. Therefore, I do not have to "pohon maaf dari jauh"...hehehe...


Whatever it is, I am lucky to still be here this Ramadhan and look forward to the coming of Syawal. Insya Allah.

Until then, I could only hope and pray that everything will be fine.

p/s: The other raya song that I love is "Suara Takbir" by P.Ramlee. With the music and his voice, makes me 'melt' everytime listening to it.