Matahari atau mancis

A friend sent this to me.....its kind of funny.

Kepada Sang Suami yang perasan jejaka idaman malaya................

***Puisi Suami yg minta izin Pologami***.

Isteriku,
jika engkau bumi, akulah matahari. Aku akan menyinari mukerana engkau mengharapkan sinaran dari ku. Ingatlah bahtera yg kita kayuh,begitu penuh riak gelombang. Aku pasti akan tetap menyinari bumi, hinggakadang-kadang bumi terasa akan silauan ku. Lantas aku ingat satu halbahawa Tuhan mencipta bukan hanya bumi, malah ada planet lain yang jugamengharapkan sinaranku. Lalu.. Relakanlah aku menyinari planet lain,menyampaikan faedah adanya aku, kerana sudah takdir Illahi sinarankudiperlukan diplanet lain...


***Balasan Puisi Sang Isteri***

Suamiku,
andai kau memang mentari, sang suria yang memberi cahaya, akumerelakan engkau berikan sinaranmu kepada segala planet yang telah TUHANciptakan kerana mereka juga seperti aku perlukan cahaya mu dan akupunjuga tidak akan merasa kekurangan dengan sinaran mu...AKAN TETAPIIIIIIII.. Bila kau hanya sejengkal lilin yang berkekuatan 5watt sahaja, jangan lah bermimpi untuk menyinari planet lain!!! Kerana biliktidur kita yang kecil pun belum sanggup kau terangi. Lihatlah diri mu padacermin kaca di sudut kamar kita, di tengah remang-remang pancaran cahayamu yang telah aku mengerti...

Cuba lihat siapa dirimu... MATAHARI ataulilin? atau jangan-jangan cuma batang mancis sahaja!!

Please lah...!!!

Why I changed from Wira to Kenari....

KUALA LUMPUR: The price of petrol and diesel is up by 30 sen a litre effective today, the highest increase in the past two years.
However, the Prime Minister's Department, in a statement, said that this would be the only increase for the year.
Public transport and commercial vehicle operators only face a 15 sen rise for diesel.
“The Government has decided to introduce a direct subsidy for these operators, making up 84% of diesel users, through a fleet card scheme,” the statement stated. .............


For my size, and with my siblings in the car,Kenari is the best option. Doesn't matter if people said I downgraded my car.....

We Will Win!!

Last nite's game with Tong Kwang:

1st Q -6
2nd Q +4
3rd Q -10
4th Q +6

Overall lost -6 points. Good job gals! Good job! The journey is still rough but at least you can see a light at the end of the tunnel and I hope this motivates you gals to go on.It's part of the learning process!!

I don't know about my gals, but I'm having butterflies already. There's only 3 weeks to go, equals to 21 days, equals to 3 weekends , equals to 12 days of roadwork only..... And the results from all their hardwork since August 05 will be answered.

My gut feeling now?...... We Will Win!

But my gut feelings only will not be sufficient. You know what I mean.

Oh ya! To my little brother out there, shoot more! Don't be scared. Focus and shoot. Have confidence, ok! You can do it. I know you can. Believe in yourself!

Remember the Titans.....

Last night, I watched "Remember The Titans". It is one of my all time favourite. The coach managed to put to together a team despite of racial problems. The players had to go for an "Intensive Training Camp" in order to do this. And one of statement which motivates me, " I do not care whether you do not like each other. In this team you must learn to respect each other".The movie definitely boost my motivation, my spirit.

These words are also for my team mates -the KL Open gals team. We are going to retain this trophy this year, I hope. I promise you guys that I will be fitter this year compare to last year. And its definitely quite a challenge to do that at this age. By the way, I got to be fit as I'll be climbing Mt.Kinabalu in September, betul Hana?.... (bila nak start training ni?)

p/s: "It does not matter whether we win or lose this game, the important thing is to make them remember the night they played with us".

Back on my feet...

Phew.....its weekends again. Thank god I didn't have to work this Saturday. And after a break last Saturday and Sunday from basketball, this week, I'm back on my feet again. Well, my gals as usual, call me everyday now to report what they have done that particular day. Seems that they are more alert and motivated now. From the report, I heard some of them have managed to maintain their "skipping" results :- 450 and above for 3 minutes. That is really excellent. Hope that the rest of the team are able to achieve that too.

Well, the boys were in town for their yearly event with another boarding school here. The actual schedule was their match was supposed to be on Sunday, just nice for me to fetch their 'godparents' from the airport and straight bring them there. Then, the match was changed to Saturday. Good news and bad news, both, they didn't managed to watch the game, but they still managed to meet the boys today and luckily the game was yesterday because today it rained heavily from 3am till 10am!

I could see how happy the boys were meeting them. That was my promised to them yesterday, Insya Allah, if everything goes well, I can drive them from airport. And thank god the bus didn't leave right after breakfast as planned! It makes a big difference for them with the presence of the couple.

Today, now,I'm supposed to be up there, in Genting Highlands for the ABP. Managed to get 2 of my friends to join me. Unfortunately, because of the heavy downpour, I have problems going out of Shah Alam. For the 1st time since 1994(if I'm not mistaken), the federal highway is flooded again. It is only opened to 1 lane and only heavy vehicles are allowed to pass thru. It is really bad. I am so frustrated not able to go since its not that easy to get the tickets. But then, again, after giving it a rational thought, oh...it might be the best answer not to go. Firstly, it just rained heavily last night and the past few days also. Second, the place where I'm heading to is Genting. hmm.....I know, the history might not repreat but that place is known to be a 'not so good' place to go. Well, ada le hikmah tu why I'm not destined to go. Maybe next time. Yeah...maybe next time Vince. Sorry that I got to cancel my date with you...hehehe....

PC is dead.

2 days ago......

Arghh...something wrong with K.Ana's PC. Can't be switched on at all. Tried to adjust the plug points, the extensions, the switch on button, all sort of ways that I can remember of....still failed. Bengangnye! Coz my gals' training plan is in there. The completed one. The one that I need to show my head coach. Ok...breath in Spena...calm down....why don't I try it again tomorrow after work.

Yesterday......
Oh no!! The PC still can't be switched on. Abang asked me to try again and again. Still failed. No lights, nothing. No sound at all. Only the monitor is on. I think ......it might have been struck by lightning. Maybe coz it rained heavily with thunderstorm and lightning 2 days ago. There goes my training plan. This Saturday I'm supposed to meet my head coach for briefing - getting myself prepared for the gals' intensive camp this coming March. What should I do? Shall I re-write the whole thing? if K.Ana needs to send the CPU for service, it might take a while to repair. Will I be able to get it by end of next week then? Noooooo......I'm in dilemma. It was not an easy task to do, and now if I have to re-write it, I can't imagine actually to go through the process again.

Maybe I should wait. Hmm....I don't know. Until now, I'm still thinking. If I want to do it, I know I can. I know if I want, I can finish it within one night. Its the laziness that is creeping in to me ,telling me...wait for the PC to be repaired. Maybe I should wait till this weekend.

Last night, I met Nik. Went to Pelita SJ. Wow! That place is really pack. I guess the food is good coz Nik said the nasi kandar there is great. Nasi? nah...thanks. I'm not really into rice. Had a good, long, heart to heart chat with Nik. She gave me some advise which I know, its tough to accept, but I got to. It's damn tough Nik. You know it. You've been through it. Yes, now I have you around to talk to. What if you are not around? That will be from May onwards? Esty is also a great support, excellent friend. But Esty, you are too far away in JB. I only get to meet you when I go down to JB.
But then, again, I am still lucky to have you guys around. Thank you very much.

Well, the other friend in Bdr Sri Damansara - you know who you are.... its not that you are secondary now but you are just too busy with the 2 doctors and your admirers who keep sms-ing you every minute. So, at times, I just don't want to kacau you...hehehe...

Oh....I've got 2 tickets for the coming Anugerah Bintang Popular this Sunday. Any takers for the other ticket?

Teruja??

Lagu ni...banyak maksudnya. I dedicate to my gals .In order to succeed, we've got to change. To see the changes, to make changes, to adapt changes, especially to change to become a better person, its not easy. It involves courage, challenges, sometimes heart aches and a lot more things. Sometimes, if you think that you really hate what the person told you, pause for a while and think - usually its true. Just that, as normal human being - its normal to react negatively towards a positive change. Do remember this and enjoy the song.

Selepas tangis
Ilham pun mengintai
Melontar kata
Buat aku terfikir

Selepas hujan
Hari nampak berseri
Menggilap cermin hidup
Buat aku sedar

Harus bangkit semula
Sampai hatimu memandangmu (Teruja)
Baru kau tahu tinggi langit
Dicabar cinta (Teruja)

Belaian angin
Bisa jadi ribut
Halus budi wanita
Bisa jadi keras

Bagai gelora
Merubah sempadan
Aku merintis
Dunia baru

Wajah...

I saw the video on TV3 one day....it touched my heart.A really nice song. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul.

Berbumbungkan angkasa kelabu
Lantainya bumi retak seribu
Setiap langkah perjalananmu
Beronak berliku

Betapa berat mata memandang
Berat bahu menggalas bebanan
Belum sempat menitis ke pipi
Tangisan kering sendiri

Berkali tersungkur
Pandanganmu kabur
Namun azam meneruskan hidup
Tak pernah luntur

Engkaulah perwira
Di medan derita
Merentasi ranjau kehidupan
Dengan harapan

Luahan rasa derita jiwa
Pada wajah tiada rahsia
Menunggu malang berganti tuah
Usah kau berputus asa
Kaulah wira

Life...and its purpose

Yesterday, I spent the rest of my evening, after work, at K.Ana's house with her kids and parents.K.Ana and Abg Ise is on "honeymoon" / business trip to Gold Coast. I'm supposed to help out Abang (if he needs any) for his test which is just a few days away. Along is also having her exams (no - I can't help you with Add Maths or science subjects, sorry)Hope with my presence will motivate you to study...hehehe . Since it was raining really heaving with thunder and lightning (which prevented me to work on my gals' training plan on the PC), all of us sat in the kitchen while eating dinner and just lepak there till the thunderstorm stopped at about 8.30pm.

Then, I received a call from a friend. The conversation went like this:

Him: Assalamualaikum..apa khabar?
Me: Waalaikumsalam....baik. camne ? Sihat ke?
Him : Sihat.
Me: Kat mana ni ? kat Kem PLKN ke? tak sibuk?(he is the ketua Jurulatih for one of the PLKN camp)
Him: tak delah I dah temporary quit.
Me: What do you mean by temporary? Tak habiskan the whole session of 3 months tu?
Him: aahh..tak. Boringlah. I got problem now. Can't concentrate.
Me: (being penyibuk as usual) kenapa> anything that I can help?
Him: takde lah..I got marriage problem. I'm going for a divorce with my wife.
Me: kenapa ni? what happened?
Him: No lah, I've got another person. Staying in with her.
Me: Oh my God. Kenapa jadi camni? Can't you guys work out something? Apalah masalah korang ni kaum lelaki. Tak cukup dengan satu.
Him: alah...apa lagi nak buat. dah I berkawan dgn you all...dah tak kisah.Berjangkit kot..

That was part of the conversation between me and him. I was stunned with what he told me. Shocked. Couldn't believe my ears. What's wrong with people nowadays? Maybe I'm assuming . But then, I knew him when we were in the same PLKN camp in PD last year. He was this nice guy who talks about his family. Its was a shock when he called up and told me about it. And the worst part is he said its 'berjangkit' from us - his pool of friends yang dah ‘single’ balik ni. Excuse me! Come on! That remark is not fair. I didn't even want this thing to happen to me. It just happened. I was really proud to be married especially when it had reached the 9th year. And I am definitely not proud of being separated. And since August until now, I am just not used to this ‘single’ life yet.

I took a moment to pause and think. When I think about it rationally, I don't blame him 100%. Women nowadays are daring and desperate themselves. Some of them do not even think whether the men have families, small children to raise. I personally think that, if the men can afford - meaning financially and emotionally, why not. It is not going to be easy to be fair , I mean no way he is going to be fair, but if he can afford, at least the financial part is solved. But those women do not think like that. They just want to enjoy, get what their want without thinking of other people feelings.

It reminded me of the conversation I had with the girl who took him away. I did speak to her to find out the reasons. I was calm enough to ask her name and where does she stay. She just graduated from one of the ‘Uni’ in Shah Alam. Huh! I was thinking – did they teach this subject in Uni nowadays? Then I even told her that if she was madly in love with him and serious enough to get married to him – I allow it to happen. BUT….she needed to be serious about it and I gave her a month to act on it. Or else – it means that she was just playing a fool. Guess what? She said I was an angel sent from above because when I spoke to her I didn’t even raise my voice. I told her, in my line of work,I motivate teenagers, kids and sometimes adults. I am also a trainer for PLKN, therefore I was treating her like one of my students!

Then, until a month after that, she just kept quiet while my mobile phone kept ringing in the middle of the night with messages that she sent . Messages that he sent her and she forwarded those to me. Arghh! This is definitely mind torturing. After that, I decided it’s a no because I know, she wasn’t taking it seriously. I cannot be working with teenagers and motivating them if I , myself is not stable emotionally. That was the end of my fairy tale marriage.

Even though I am a female myself, but I’m not siding anybody. I believe the girl wanted to just enjoy and have fun. She was not ready for any commitment even though I had actually agreed to allow him to marry her. But then again to all men out there, you got to know which one is diamond and which is glass. Sometimes, the diamond that you have polished, it may not be as bright and attractive as glass but it is still precious and priceless.Addition to that, we also have our religion to fallback on .

To my married male friends out there, do take care of your wives’ feeling. Sometimes small, little things that does not seem important to you, might be a big deal to your wives. I guess as wives, we do not expect much. Small, little gesture does wonders – trust me. Even just a wish will do. But the most important thing in a relationship is open communication and being transparent to your partner.

To my single friends who are getting married out there, don’t be scared because of what happened to me. Taqdir dan ketentuan Allah will decide everything. You just need to usaha. Insya Allah , pray for the best coz if you do it for Allah, insya Allah you will get the best result and your heart will be calmer. (I know some of you adored him earlier).

To my ‘still’ single friends – maybe you have a bigger role and responsibilities out there for waiting for you. You might not know.

Like my brother told me once when I was in the UK last year – we live in this world with a purpose. Ask yourself – what is your purpose? If you are just talking about graduating, working, getting married, buying a house, having a family, then that is just a routine of life. That is not a purpose. We are just being lent to this world temporarily and we need to contribute back to our religion, to our society or even other things.


P/S: Today, out of a sudden, I searched for my ring. The ring which I have not worn for the past few months. I miss wearing my ring. Especially wearing it on the finger which I used to for the past 9 years. After putting it on..........I feel good. It does not matter if I'm alone.I just don't care.There are a lot more things to do in this world.There are a lot more things to focus on.

So, ask yourself what is your purpose ? I think I've found my answer, insya Allah, hopefully this is the right one.

Take a break!

Sunday, 19th February was the day that I get to relax and unwind after 6 stretch weeks of basketball on Saturday and Sunday either in KK or JB. And I felt weird. Had nothing to do, just sitting down there, in front of the TV at my mom's place. Jadi macam mengantuk and malas pulak. Bila pikir, ada bagus nye spending time with Dynamites -takde lah rasa malas tu menyusup masuk. But then again, this is a golden opportunity to pause for a while, take a break, and relax before the next weekend activities. Moreover, I just got to know from STF's HM that the Southern Zone Qualifying is brought forward to 23-26 March.
I can see myself in JB for the next few weekends. Its not that far anymore. And the gals are not ready yet.

The bad part of being at home, especially my mom's place - she invited some of my cousins over and we had a feast.With chicken rice, roast chicken, potato salad, sup daging and my favourite - bubur pulut hitam. (sanggup gi kedai pergi beli beras pulut hitam 2 hours before guests arrived) - who can resist all that? And that is also one of the reason I can't stay at home.

Eyes popping out...

Last night , I was not in the mood again. Went to my friend's office and spent time there surfing the net. Looking for people to YM with but unfortunately all my friends were not online. Maybe they were busy. So, as usual, updated my blog.
At first, my friend planned to go home at 1pm . She has been working like mad the past one week to settle the company's accounts with a few external auditors. Oh my god! I don't think I would ever want to work like that. But maybe she likes it. I don't know. Then, at about 1am, when I checked with her again, she said she's going back at about 3am. Ok...I said. She asked me, "what do you mean by ok? Don't you want to go back first?". Well, I said no. Coz I might not be able to sleep. Not in the mood to continue surfing, I headed to her room. So, there I was, a few minutes later, on the sofa, in her office, tried to get some sleep. Despite of the sofa was only half my height, I managed to squeeze in comfortably.Actually, there was no effort at all coz the moment I put my head on the sofa's arm rest, I fell asleep immediately.

Suddenly, I heard her voice, "Oi! Cik adik. bangun. Dah pukul 3.30 pagi. Nak balik ni". Oh, its time to go back home. My eyes were hardly opened - swollen and sleepy, 2 in 1. Forced myself to drive back to Shah Alam. While driving back on the empty road, I sent an sms to someone to wish him best of luck for his cross country competition today. Didn't know whether he received it or not as I didn't get any reply till now.I had another 2 more hours to sleep. Needed to wake up at 6.15am as today I'm working at 8.00am.

When I was sound asleep the 2nd round on my comfy bed (compared to the sofa), at 5.45am, a call came in. It was from somebody in the UK. Somebody whom I miss talking to, somebody whom I can 'mengadu' to. Well, there goes my beauty sleep. At least, I enjoyed talking to him. I managed to trash out some things. I feel better today. Friend, thank you very much for returning my call.

And now, at 12.00noon, finishing my shift, I feel as if my eyes are popping out any minute now. I guess I've got to hold on to the sunglasses for the whole day today.

p/s: I know I have been writing a lot lately. I even received a comment from a friend sometime last week, "When its too long, its not a blog anymore" which was meant for somebody tapi I ada lah jugak terasa. I just don't care. If I don't have anybody to talk to, then I'll talk to the computer. And this is the way that I'm going to do it.....nobody's forcing anybody to read it. Its the way I can release stress for now...

Ku mohon...

Setiap hari kumohon
Agar Kau sentiasa
Memberiku ketenangan dalam hati... kekuatan
Menempuh segala dugaan yang mencabar ini
Pasti punya ertinya
Engkau beriku harapan
Menjawab segala persoalan
Hadapi semua dengan tenang

Dengan merasa kesyukuran
Ku doa Kau selalu
Mengawasi gerak-geriku
Berkatilah ku penuh rahmat dari Mu

Oh Tuhan terangkan hati dalam sanubariku
Oh Tuhan ku berserah segalanya kepadamu
Agar jiwaku tenang dengan bimbingan Mu selalu

Ada kalanya ku merasa hidup ini seperti kaca
Jikalau tidak bersabar
Hancur berderailah akhirnya
Tabahkanlah hatiku
Melalui semua itu... Ooh...
KuatkanlahCekalkanlah diriku

Curahkanlah nikmat Mu pada hidupku

Bila rindu

dikeheningan malam,
termenungku berseorang
tak lena mata dipejam
terdengar suara terngiang
suara merdu yg di sayang
bagai kau didepan mata
ku capai tapi tak kenal
sukarnya memendam rasa
ingin ku luahkan kata

bila rindu,
terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,
makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu,
sentuhan mu ku rasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,
jiwa ini,bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

jauh angan ku lena,
ku rasa kita bersama,
kau bawaku ke sana
ke alam kisah yg lama,
kenangan di dlm jiwa..
bila tersedar semula,
disisiku kau tiada
sukarnya ku pendam rasa,
ingin ku luahkan semua ooooouuu

bila rindu,
terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,
makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu,
sentuhan mu ku terasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi,
jiwa ini,
bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini

Everytime I listen to this song, I cried. Every single time. I felt my heart hurts like hell. As if somebody is crushing it with his hands. Squeezing it till I can’t breath. Sometimes the pain is unbearable. Can’t be explained. No, its not because that I miss you. I DON’T miss you at all. I just miss a person named ‘friend’. Not only just a friend, but a best friend. A best friend who has been there for the past 13 years, and now he’s no more around. A best friend who can listen to my chat, my nag, my happiness, my frustration, my achievement, and the list goes on and on. I am sad. What makes me cry? I don’t know. Its not about missing him. Its more of everything. A lot of questions go through my mind. Can I find somebody who can replace him? Can I find another person whom can be a good listener as him? Who, among my current friends want to listen to my problems now?
I know, a number of my friends out there, whom heard my voice tonight, called me and asked me to join them because they do not want me to be alone. They knew I was crying. They knew I was down. But its different. They all have families. They all have commitments. I can’t just call them anytime of the day just to make them listen to me. Its not fair to them. And being with them won’t be able to solve my problems, my emotions. It can help to reduce my sadness but it won’t make it go away. Its just a temporary solution. A temporary solution by covering my feelings up. And I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling of being helpless. Not able to solve my own problems. My own feelings. I don’t have a solution for it yet. And until I have, I guess I just have to be ready for it.

I found this from one of the blogs when I wanted to find the lyrics above and I love every single word of it:


Cinta Agung hanya dari Allah S.W.T. Cinta lain kepada suami, isteri, anak-anak, ibu dan bapa, kepandaian, Kejelitaan, pangkat dan harta benda hanya bersifat sementara. Boleh Hilang dalam sekelip mata. Yang kekal hanya Allah S.W.T.
Cinta datang kepada orang yang masih mempunyai harapan walaupun mereka telah dikecewakan..Kepada mereka yang masih percaya, walaupun mereka telah dikhianati..Kepada mereka yang masih ingin mencintai, walaupun mereka telah disakiti sebelumnya dan kepada mereka yang mempunyai keberanian dan keyakinan untuk membangunkan kembali kepercayaan.
Hapuskan Kedukaanmu... Tapi mengapa kesakitan di hati ini masih lagi terasa? Sabarlah.... Mungkin bersama masa kau akan belajar untuk melupai segala kelukaan dan kesakitan itu. Sungguh sekuat mana menahan diri sedangkan air mata semakin mendesak untuk tercurah. Kebahagiaan pasti tiba orang yang jahat pasti tercela segala keburukan telah menimpa saatnya kelegaan menjelma. Banyak mata yang terbuka sementara lainnya terpejam. Di dunia nyata sesuatu bisa ada, bisa juga tiada. Maka lemparkan sekuat tenaga kesedihan hatimu sebab kesedihanmu hanya akan membuatmu menjadi nanar. Sesungguhnya Tuhanmu telah menyiapkan apa yang kau perlukan esok hari dan kau akan menjumpai kecukupan itu ketika kau menjalaninya. Biarkanlah segala sesuatu mengalir seirama taqdir. Jangan sekali-kali kau tidur kecuali tetap waspada. Saat kau kerdipkan matamu belum sempat kau terlena ternyata Allah telah mengubah keadaan. Sekalipun kulukiskan keagunganMu dalam goresan sebagai tanda kesucian yang mempererat jiwa Engkau tetap Yang Teragung dan tempat segala yang bermakna. Ya Tuhan, hanya pada keagunganMu segalanya terasa lapang.

I'm a B (-ve)!

Amazing...by doing some tests -Q&A, they can actually tell you which blood group you are in!

Your Inner Blood Type is Type B

You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day.Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable.And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success.You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible. You are most compatible with: B and AB Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio

What's" Your Inner Blood Type?

Below are some explanation on the blood groups and the rhesus.

ABO blood grouping system

According to the AB0 blood typing system there are four different kinds of blood types: A, B, AB or 0 (null).

Blood group A
If you belong to the blood group A, you have A antigens on the surface of your red blood cells and B antibodies in your blood plasma.

Blood group B
If you belong to the blood group B, you have B antigens on the surface of your red blood cells and A antibodies in your blood plasma.

Blood group AB
If you belong to the blood group AB, you have both A and B antigens on the surface of your red blood cells and no A or B antibodies at all in your blood plasma.

Blood group O
If you belong to the blood group 0 (null), you have neither A or B antigens on the surface of your red blood cells but you have both A and B antibodies in your blood plasma.


Rh factor blood grouping system

Well, it gets more complicated here on in, because there's another antigen to be considered - the Rh antigen.
Some of us have it, some of us don't. If it is present, the blood is RhD positive, if not it's RhD negative.
So, for example, some people in group A will have it, and will therefore be classed as A+ (or A positive).
While the ones that don't, are A- (or, wait for it...A negative). And so it goes for groups B, AB and O.
This effectively doubles the number of different blood types to be matched, because you shouldn't mix blood type A+ with blood type A-.

84% of the population is Rh positive. (And yes, that means the other 16% of the population is running around with Rh negative blood.)

So, friends out there, since my blood is categorised as quite 'rare' , if you know anybody of in need of B(-ve) blood, please give me a call. Well, I'm quite a regular blood donor. If I have not donated yet at that point of time (they allow us to donate 3 months once), then I am more than happy to do it!

Oh ya! I have blacklisted some hospitals in Malaysia during my process to donate blood. This is because they had actually made the painless process into a really painful experience. Some of them, instead of poking at one place once only, they did it at a few places on both hands. Once, in KK, they were trying to find the right vein by moving the big needle around in my arms! If any of you out there who would like to donate blood for the first time, I recommend you to do it only with Pusat Darah Negara (National Blood Bank). So far, they are the best! It does not even matter if we have very small, tiny veins like me.

My heart is purple! My heart is purple!

Your Heart Is Purple

For you, love is about establishing and developing a deep connection.If it's true love, it brings you more wisdom and inner strength. Your flirting style: Sincere Your lucky first date: An afternoon at a tea house Your dream lover: Is both thoughtful and expressive What you bring to relationships: Understanding

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Mungkinkah

Since Jac became the Malaysian Idol, this song has been one of my favourite because of the lyrics and the way she sings it everytime. It can be translated into many ways... It sort of bring up the spirit in me, the spirit of fighting, the spirit of achieving something. I dedicate this to my gals. I hope they have the same spirit..


Berjuta bintang menyanyi
Ku Di antara yang satu
Mungkin cahaya dan impianku
Di sini gemilang
Lalu ku redah onak duri dan lautan api
Kemuncak ingin ku tawan
Aku jelajahi
ohhh...

Korus:

Kini gemilang itu semakin pasti kugenggam
Gemilang suara keyakinan kian dalam
Gementar harus jangan
jiwaku harus bertenaga
Mungkinkah ini menjadi realiti

Bridge:

Lalu kuredah onak duri dan lautan api
Kemuncaknya inginku tawan aku jelajahi
Ohh...
Kini gemilang itu semakin pasti kugenggam
Gemilang suara keyakinan kian dalam
Gementar harus jangan jiwaku harus bertenaga
Mungkinkah ini
Menjadi realiti

I thought...

I thought I left 2005.
I thought I left the pain behind.
I thought I started a new life.
I thought I am strong.
I thought I move on strongly.
I thought good friends will complement everything.
Well....

I forgot that I'm just a normal human being.
And human being do break down at times....

Exactly!

Your 2005 Song Is

Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson "But since you've been goneI can breathe for the first timeI'm so moving on" In 2005, you moved on.

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

Poppy? That's why I've never liked roses!

Your Birth Month is August

Ambitious and strong, you find it easy to be successful.You are brave and stubborn. No one's going to set your limits! Your soul reflects: Strength, character, and devotion Your gemstone: Peridot Your flower: Poppy Your colors: Orange, red, and light green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Keys to my heart?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.


The keys to my heart? Oh my god, Oh my god....most of it are true..no wonder its so difficult to find one and once I'm betrayed......I think I can forget about finding a replacement.


Want to check what is yours? :
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/

Rutin? Sampai bila?

Semalam....

11.00am habis kerja. Drove back to Shah Alam. Call some friends for lunch - sume orang busy. Had KFC at Giant Shah Alam

2.00pm right after solat zohor, tido. Apa lagi, coz got to replace last night's sleep.

5.00pm woke up for about 20mts for solat Asar and continued sleeping. No mood to go out.

7.10pm the alarm went off. Tengok my phone, rupanya got 2 missed calls from my coach. Returned call to him. Apa lagi, it was about Dynamites since I am going down to JB today. Teringat belum start packing for the trip. So, spent the next 30mts to pack.

8.00pm after Maghrib, left home for Hana's. Rasa macam malas nak drive tapi I was not in the "right condition" to stay alone at home. On the way there, I felt so bored. Terfikir pulak, is my life going to be like this forever or maybe the next few years.

9.00pm On the way to Hana's, decided nak singgah Ikano. Saje je jalan2. Mana tau if I can get rid of the "depressed" feelings. Baru teringat yang belum dinner. After going one round, nak makan pun takde mood eventhough there were quite a number of eating places there.

10.00pm reached Hana's house. Dia pulak tak balik lagi. Ada dinner katanya. So, dok je lah depan TV while reading magazine.

10.40pm Dia balik. We had a chat before I retire. Nothing much. Again, the conversation was about Dynamites.

11.00pm Apa lagi, tidolah.

2.30am Terlambat bangun. Set alarm at 2am tapi biasalah ter'snooze'. Kelam kabut dibuatnya. Alhamdulillah, nasib baik jugak tak terlajak. My car CD player pulak buat hal. Tak nak berbunyi lansung. So, it was a very boring drive to work.

3.10am My colleague yang pegang kunci ofis lambat sampai. Lagilah buat aku takde mood. Bila kite offer nak pegang kunci, dia cakap tak pe. Sekarang, dah lambat. Ni dah 2nd time. Aku bengang betul kalau orang lain punyer attitude and discipline affected performance. We are all supposed to be adult. Janganlah menyusahkan orang lain.

Bila teringat balik rutin 24 jam yang lepas, sedihnya rasa. Kalau le macam ni for the next few years, entahlah..... Sekarang ni, teringin rasa nak gi pantai nak release keboringan. Kalau boleh somewhere like my kampung in Terengganu. Rindu kat bunyi ombak, angin........

Well, for now, I just got to visualise and imagine...until my next trip sometime in March.

Emptiness...

Seminggu ni aku kerja 3am - 11am....rasa macam panjang je masa nak sampai pukul 7. Tapi from 7am sampai 11am, cepat. Sebab my officemate sume dah start masuk office. So, pagi ni, seperti biasa, kul 2.15am, aku pun turun dari rumah, start kereta and terus gi ke Bangsar - tempat kerja aku sekarang ni.

Tengah dalam perjalanan gi Bangsar, biasalah, nak mengelakkan mengantuk, aku on lah radio kuat-kuat. Tetiba, keluar lagu Flop Poppy "Jika kau bercinta lagi". Mula ku tak perasan gak liriknya. Lepas nyanyi, then baru aku perasan. Lirik nya camni:

Jika kau bercinta lagi
Cintalah sepenuhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Jagalah kau hatinya

Engkau yang memilihnya
Tanpa memikirkan tentang diriku
Kini ku hanya dapat berdoa
Agar kau berbahagia disampingnya

Jika kau bercinta lagi
Cintalah sepenuh nya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
Jagalah kau hatinya

Aku tak dapat menghalang
Engkau punya kemahuan sendiri
Biarku hidup mengenang
Peristiwa yang tak dapat ku lupa

Kini aku hanya dapat berdoa
Agar berbahagia kau disampingnya
Selamat tinggal
Aku mengundurkan diri....



Hmm....familiarnya bunyi lagu ni. Kalau dulu mungkin aku sedih gila kot kalau dengar lagu macam ni. Tapi sekarang, aku rasa kosong. Takde perasaan lansung.Macam tong deram tu. Benci takde. Geram pun takde. Sayang....mintak maap le bebanyak, lansung le takde. Kosong sekosong-kosongnya. Bak setengah orang kata...heartless giler.

Minggu lepas, masa aku penuh sebab spend dengan Dynamites and Cagers. Tapi minggu ni, balik to normal routine..... and now, I feel empty again......

Photo mood

No mood to write today.

......I'm in the mood of putting up some photos which was taken by these people themselves using my mobile phone. Like the famous saying, ' A picture paints a thousand words'........

To get a glimpse...do visit http://spena15.fotopages.com

I love all the pics.

Enjoy.

p/s: Boys....I hope you are not angry. I can't resist putting it up! Don't worry, all of you look good.

The end of the camp....another learning curve

Well, that was the end of our CNY Intensive camp for basketball in KK.It felt like the whole week went by very fast. Actually too fast. I don't know about others, but I had a great time - which includes ups and downs of my team's performance, their emotions and not forgetting my own spirit and emotion.

Some of the interesting things I came across:

-for the 1st time in my life, I missed the bus. We were supposed to take the bus from KL to KK at 9.00pm. Kept asking the counter, and was informed that the bus has not arrived until at 9.30pm we were told by another guy that the bus left about 30mts ago! Weird!

-the team spirit and teamwork of the girls nowadays are very different from ours 15 years ago. Different in terms of I feel they give up easily on working together. They get angry, upset and jealous easily. Instead of chanelling the anger and frustration towards a positive outcome, they prefer or they showed it through frustrations among team mates and it also affected their own performance.

-Another thing...I got darker...burnt. It was really, really hot for the past few days.Until one of my player's grandma who came and visit, said to me, " kesian chek. gelap dah. jagalah sikit kulit tu nanti tak siapa yang mau".Thinking positively - the makcik cared for me. Ada jugak orang yang kesian dengan I. Hahaha.... Its ok makcik, my focus is not in trying to get a boyfriend or a a life partner. Too much problems having a partner around. And with no time to spend with him, why do you need him for? My life now , on weekdays I'll be busy with my job and on weekends, I'm tight up with basketball activities - mostly outstation.I don't even have time to 'lepak' with my basketball friends nowadays.

Well, back to the camp.I lost my temper.And almost lost my fighting spirit in helping the girls to achieve their dream. After their "upsetting" behaviour during the game on Friday afternoon, I went back to the apartment earlier than usual and went to the riverside with Hana. I wanted to cool myself down and also give them a chance to solve their own 'problems' which has been affecting their game. Actually I prefer the beach or sea..its more effective to calm myself down. But well, in KK there's no beach and the nearest to that is the riverside. I reviewed. I analysed myself. I analysed the team. Was I being too harsh on them? Was I being too garang? Or maybe I was being too nice to them until one of them was rude enough to scold me back. I don't know. Maybe my expectations are too high and they just can't go beyond it. Maybe they are just weak. They are not like us when we were at their age. I remembered my team having a crisis - but it was well managed and solved before the next game itself. And it was not repeated or brought up again. But them? Oh yeah, we had the same coach but he was much more younger at that time, you can imagine how hot tempered he was when coaching us. We didn't give up. We didn't even complain. We just accepted our mistakes, and tried our best to improve.

I've tried to :
help
show that I care
love them
advise
share my experience
loads of other things and methods...

But I still feel that I failed to get some of them to respond to me. And these players are the ones whom I considered better than the rest. Or maybe the best players. What should I do? Time is running out. I'm not sure about them but I feel the pressure of making sure the team has least problems.Especially the tournament is only 1 1/2 months away. I guess, some things only they can settle it internally. I hope they will be able to do so .....ASAP.

Wish we could sms each other.......

Last night, my friend sent text messages to me. It went like this:

Her sms : “Hello…where are you”
Mine : “In KL….”
Hers : “What are you doing?”
Mine : “Nothing….” (Well actually I was at K.Ana’s place to get some things to bring to KK tonight)
Hers : “want to go out?”

I didn’t reply after that. Why? Hmm…because:
a) my hands were full trying to test some marker pens to bring to KK
b) I needed to go to Summit Plaza to get my players shoes and some other sports items right after that
c) I have not packed my bags for tonight’s trip and needed to do it last night.(knowing that she would ask me out)
d) I needed extra rest before going to KK tonight coz I know I’ll be damn tired for the rest of the week.
e) its kind of scary going out with this friend of mine coz she likes to hang out at places which I’m not comfortable with. And …I don’t dare to tell her that coz I do not want to hurt her feelings.
f) hehehe…..actually I forgot to reply to her sms.

To think of it….what a waste of sms. We didn’t make full use of it. This reminded me of a good friend in India. I wish I can sms to him. He’s been a good friend for the past 1 year. A very good friend indeed. Eventhough we have not met each other face to face, but we managed to speak to each other using the yahoo messenger service (very useful). He’s been there, providing me with support when I needed to talk to somebody. Both of us had gone through ups and downs in our lives through out the whole year. At one point of time, I thought I will be losing him due to his sickness. We lost contact for nearly 2 months. Luckily he was ok.


Note: Brojen! I didn’t realise we’ve known each other and been friends for more than 1 year already! Thank you for being there. Thank you for being supportive. Thank you for being strong. Thank you for stop smoking! (You have , right?) Do remember our 2006 resolutions, ok?