1. I work from 12 midnite till 10.30am the next day
2. I sleep for 5 hours only (usually I need 7-8 hours sleep a day)
3. I only play basketball once a week (this contributes to my current 'weight gain')
4. I've been eating a lot of instant noodles i.e. maggie, mamee, indomie..name it
5. I've been entertaining phone calls from new friends whom I get to know from the internet
6. I've broken some hearts out there
7. I've been doing window shopping only as I'm kind of 'broke'
8. I've been smiling and smiling and smiling all day long .....
Friday, July 28
Wednesday, July 26
There are still some good people out there
Last night I did that crazy thing again. This is the 2nd time. The same as about 2 months ago, I arrived in Pudu from JB after 12midnight. Same as the 1st time, trying to save some money and instead of paying the cab drivers double the amount (because its after midnight), I wanted to walk from Pudu to Br .
The last time I did that, I was scared to continue on walking to Br (eventhough I know its near and I can make it), I took a cab from infront of CM. The Malay guy asked for RM20.Just for that short distance. As I was desperate - I took the cab.
But last night, I was determined. Determined to walk from Pudu to Br. The scariest and darkest part was infront of the KTM. Upon reaching infront of KTM, I saw a man who seemed to be looking for something from the rubbish bin. Hmm...this is not good. I crossed the road - just to avoid passing near him. As I was walking in the middle of the road, on the divider - a taxi stopped beside me.
The driver :"You want a cab?'
Me : No thank you. I don't have enough money to pay. I want to walk."
Driver : "No, come in. It is dangerous. I will send you. How much you have and where you want to go?"
Me : Are you sure? I want to go to Br.All taxis want to charge me RM30 (from my past experience.Well, I exaggerated a bit by adding 'all taxis' and another RM10 to it).
Driver: yes, I am sure. And it is very dangerous for you to walk alone.
Me : (entering the taxi ) Thank you very much sir.
Driver: Here, in Malaysia, after midnight is very dangerous to walk alone. Got a lot of bad people. They can steal from you.
Me: Is it? Thank you for informing me.
Driver: Where are you from?
Me: (thinking hard to answer such a simple question) I'm from South Africa.
Driver: Oh is it? I have 4 races in my blood you know. My grandmother was from South Africa too. Just died in 1997.My grandfather is Indian.My father is from Pakistan. My mother like a bit Malay.
Me : Wow! That's a real mix.You are lucky. (trying to figure out what is the best answer)
Driver: Next time don't walk alone after midnight. here in Malaysia there are 45,000 taxis and sure some of them do not charge you expensive, like me.
Me : Thank you very much. You are very kind
Driver: Where did you come from? Penang?
Me: No - JB.
Then, when we reach Br,
Driver: Ok.We are here. RM10 please
Me: Here it is. Thank you very much.
Driver: (turning around to take the money) oh. You look a bit like Malay, huh?
Me : Well, yes, I am also mix. (left the taxi and walked across as fast as I can)
The moral of the story -
a) you can only act like a foreigner when you have the size and the skin colour, and make sure its only at night. (mind you -most times, foreigners are charged more )
b) There are still some good people out there - but please be careful eventhough they look nice and offered help
c) DO NOT attempt to walk from PUDU to BR alone coz I can tell you its really dangerous and scary. Until now, I'm still wondering whether will I be able to make it to Br walking on my own after midnight .
d) Why are we scared to walk freely in our own country? I remembered walking alone from the train station in Nottingham, which is about 20mts walking distance to the bus stand, to catch a bus - at about 12.30midnight. And the feeling is not as bad as how I felt here in my own country.
Anyways, thank you very much to the nice taxi driver, I'm still here. Alhamdulillah.
The last time I did that, I was scared to continue on walking to Br (eventhough I know its near and I can make it), I took a cab from infront of CM. The Malay guy asked for RM20.Just for that short distance. As I was desperate - I took the cab.
But last night, I was determined. Determined to walk from Pudu to Br. The scariest and darkest part was infront of the KTM. Upon reaching infront of KTM, I saw a man who seemed to be looking for something from the rubbish bin. Hmm...this is not good. I crossed the road - just to avoid passing near him. As I was walking in the middle of the road, on the divider - a taxi stopped beside me.
The driver :"You want a cab?'
Me : No thank you. I don't have enough money to pay. I want to walk."
Driver : "No, come in. It is dangerous. I will send you. How much you have and where you want to go?"
Me : Are you sure? I want to go to Br.All taxis want to charge me RM30 (from my past experience.Well, I exaggerated a bit by adding 'all taxis' and another RM10 to it).
Driver: yes, I am sure. And it is very dangerous for you to walk alone.
Me : (entering the taxi ) Thank you very much sir.
Driver: Here, in Malaysia, after midnight is very dangerous to walk alone. Got a lot of bad people. They can steal from you.
Me: Is it? Thank you for informing me.
Driver: Where are you from?
Me: (thinking hard to answer such a simple question) I'm from South Africa.
Driver: Oh is it? I have 4 races in my blood you know. My grandmother was from South Africa too. Just died in 1997.My grandfather is Indian.My father is from Pakistan. My mother like a bit Malay.
Me : Wow! That's a real mix.You are lucky. (trying to figure out what is the best answer)
Driver: Next time don't walk alone after midnight. here in Malaysia there are 45,000 taxis and sure some of them do not charge you expensive, like me.
Me : Thank you very much. You are very kind
Driver: Where did you come from? Penang?
Me: No - JB.
Then, when we reach Br,
Driver: Ok.We are here. RM10 please
Me: Here it is. Thank you very much.
Driver: (turning around to take the money) oh. You look a bit like Malay, huh?
Me : Well, yes, I am also mix. (left the taxi and walked across as fast as I can)
The moral of the story -
a) you can only act like a foreigner when you have the size and the skin colour, and make sure its only at night. (mind you -most times, foreigners are charged more )
b) There are still some good people out there - but please be careful eventhough they look nice and offered help
c) DO NOT attempt to walk from PUDU to BR alone coz I can tell you its really dangerous and scary. Until now, I'm still wondering whether will I be able to make it to Br walking on my own after midnight .
d) Why are we scared to walk freely in our own country? I remembered walking alone from the train station in Nottingham, which is about 20mts walking distance to the bus stand, to catch a bus - at about 12.30midnight. And the feeling is not as bad as how I felt here in my own country.
Anyways, thank you very much to the nice taxi driver, I'm still here. Alhamdulillah.
Thursday, July 20
Well done gals!!
Last night, I went to watch the wind orchestra competition in KL Convention Centre. This was my first visit to KLCC - the auditorium. Wow! What can I say - its a worldclass place.
And the girls played really, really well. Excellent job girls, eventhough we did not get any of the top 3, I'm still proud of you guys. The music we played - was different from the rest, the softness, the emotions, the dynamics, it made me smile through out the 2 piece.
And your new orchestra uniforms - look really good.
Well, we are still the best. I can vouch for that because we do not only play well in the orchestra but we can also march and have actually won some major marching band competition titles compare to the other schools last night.
So, once again, WELL DONE girls!!!! I'm proud of you!!
Wednesday, July 19
Our baby sister is getting married
As all of us know by now from either the announcement made on Monday, or the daily 8pm news, our baby sister, Siti is getting married soon. It has actually raised a mixture of feelings, emotions, feedback from all walks of life locally.
Well, my first reaction when I heard the news was - OH MY GOD! She's getting married to a 48year old divorcee with 4 children. And when they did the interview, she said she fell for him due to his lovingness and caringness towards his own children. That is just ridiculous!
But last night, when I had nothing to do, it crop up my mind again.Hmm....Let us look at it rationally here, (not like how I first reacted). I am putting myself in her shoes and also taking into consideration of all the artist marriages in Malaysia. She's already 28 years old . But with her baby face and her innocent , and no gossip look, she still look as if she's 22 years old. Some of us thinks that she's still young but at that age, any normal girl would want to get married and have a family of their own. She has been travelling a lot, dealing with a lot of people/men, and I believe a lot of them has shown interest in making her as girlfriend / life partner. But in reality, she leads an 'abnormal' life - whatever she does, it will definitely attract attention. Whatever her decision is, would definitely create havoc. Some of them would be thinking negatively and some the opposite.
What if she was to choose a single young, really good looking man who is also succesful and stable? Maybe somebody like Dr.Fazley? Well, look at our famous lovebirds - Erra and Yusry. It was done in a really grand way - sorry to say, unfortunately it didn't end up like the fairy tale stories as we would love to see.
There is also a famous saying....its better for you to love somebody who loves you than to go after somebody whom you love. Maybe this is what Siti is doing. For somebody who strongly holds to her religion - I strongly believe she had done her 'solat istikharah' to decide whether this is the right decision for her or not.
Don't you think she reminded us of our own lives? What if we have to make that decision? Having to make a big decision (getting married is a BIG decision).At least she herself is already a millionaire. What if one of us, a normal salaried person, proposed by a millionaire? Eventhough there's a big age gap and the person is not that good looking, don't you think some of us would accept it? I don't think she's going for his money. She is also famous enough - she does not need any extra cheap publicity. She will also need to take care of the stepchildren later on. Remember Marlia Musa and M.Nasir? She married M.Nasir who had 6 kids? And she's doing really well currently. Just because M.Nasir is good looking and a cool fella...everybody seemed to be ok with it.
Siti has been my idol, my favourite singer as her voice is really good - she's really good in her singing. Well, she might not be that good in English like most Malaysians but she's working it out, and hey..nobody's perfect, remember! Everyone that loves her, that includes me, wants the best for her. We are all worried for her until some of us never think that this is what she wants and I believe she has definitely think it thoroughly before making this BIG decision as this involves her life. Her future.
Put aside that she's the famous Siti....what will other people's reaction be?
Question will always be raised by people, on marriage, if there is money, status, religion or nationality involved. Don't you think so?
Well, my first reaction when I heard the news was - OH MY GOD! She's getting married to a 48year old divorcee with 4 children. And when they did the interview, she said she fell for him due to his lovingness and caringness towards his own children. That is just ridiculous!
But last night, when I had nothing to do, it crop up my mind again.Hmm....Let us look at it rationally here, (not like how I first reacted). I am putting myself in her shoes and also taking into consideration of all the artist marriages in Malaysia. She's already 28 years old . But with her baby face and her innocent , and no gossip look, she still look as if she's 22 years old. Some of us thinks that she's still young but at that age, any normal girl would want to get married and have a family of their own. She has been travelling a lot, dealing with a lot of people/men, and I believe a lot of them has shown interest in making her as girlfriend / life partner. But in reality, she leads an 'abnormal' life - whatever she does, it will definitely attract attention. Whatever her decision is, would definitely create havoc. Some of them would be thinking negatively and some the opposite.
What if she was to choose a single young, really good looking man who is also succesful and stable? Maybe somebody like Dr.Fazley? Well, look at our famous lovebirds - Erra and Yusry. It was done in a really grand way - sorry to say, unfortunately it didn't end up like the fairy tale stories as we would love to see.
There is also a famous saying....its better for you to love somebody who loves you than to go after somebody whom you love. Maybe this is what Siti is doing. For somebody who strongly holds to her religion - I strongly believe she had done her 'solat istikharah' to decide whether this is the right decision for her or not.
Don't you think she reminded us of our own lives? What if we have to make that decision? Having to make a big decision (getting married is a BIG decision).At least she herself is already a millionaire. What if one of us, a normal salaried person, proposed by a millionaire? Eventhough there's a big age gap and the person is not that good looking, don't you think some of us would accept it? I don't think she's going for his money. She is also famous enough - she does not need any extra cheap publicity. She will also need to take care of the stepchildren later on. Remember Marlia Musa and M.Nasir? She married M.Nasir who had 6 kids? And she's doing really well currently. Just because M.Nasir is good looking and a cool fella...everybody seemed to be ok with it.
Siti has been my idol, my favourite singer as her voice is really good - she's really good in her singing. Well, she might not be that good in English like most Malaysians but she's working it out, and hey..nobody's perfect, remember! Everyone that loves her, that includes me, wants the best for her. We are all worried for her until some of us never think that this is what she wants and I believe she has definitely think it thoroughly before making this BIG decision as this involves her life. Her future.
Put aside that she's the famous Siti....what will other people's reaction be?
Question will always be raised by people, on marriage, if there is money, status, religion or nationality involved. Don't you think so?
Tuesday, July 18
Caffein addicted
I did this test in the blogthings.......and here comes the result.
Hmm....talking about coffee...I can drink coffee like drinking plain water. At times , if I go to Ikea , I can keep on drinking up to 4 cups. Sometimes, I feel like, instead of blood flowing in my veins, it will be coffee instead.And mind you, the coffee/espresso in Ikea is really, really good and definitely value for money(the coffee there is refillable) . Thick and strong. I won't have headaches, and I can still go straight to sleep after drinking 4 cups. Which a lot of people couldn't understand.
Other than the normal coffee/espresso, I've also tried the tongkat ali and kacip fatimah. Kacip fatimah coffee is not that strong as it is meant for the 'ladies'. I prefer tongkat ali as its stronger. I know, I know, a lot of people out there think that its only meant for men. But, it is still coffee, and what can I say, as long as it taste good, I'm all out for it. Another thing - nope, it didn't have any 'side effects' on me.If that is what you are thinking of...
The other best thing about drinking coffee is to have it in the cold weather . Especially in winter. But the setback is - your coffee tends to get cold very, very fast. One second its really hot and burned your lips, the other second its too cold. I'm also fond of ice blended coffee as the weather here is suitable for it. Once, just wanted to be crazy - I had ice blended mocha and sat down on a bench outdoors, in Ashford during winter.It was freezing cold. But just imagine, that is how some people feel, drinking coffee and sitting in the hot sun, isn't it?
Currently, I'm am crazy for my own 'mocha' drink mixture. Its a combination of TESCO 3 in 1 drink with 2 spponfuls of MILO. Idlan suggested MILO 3 in 1 with NESCAFE Gold Blend instead. Well, I go for the 'cheaper' ones instead. I'll have that twice a day.
I know its bad as my coffee intake is 70% of the liquid intake in a day. I would only have maximum a glass of water per day. I need to change this diet, but until then...I just enjoy drinking coffee....
Anybody wants to have coffee with me ? Just ring me....
| You Are an Espresso |
 At your worst, you are: anxious and high strung You drink coffee when: anytime you're not sleeping Your caffeine addiction level: high |
What Kind of Coffee Are You?
Hmm....talking about coffee...I can drink coffee like drinking plain water. At times , if I go to Ikea , I can keep on drinking up to 4 cups. Sometimes, I feel like, instead of blood flowing in my veins, it will be coffee instead.And mind you, the coffee/espresso in Ikea is really, really good and definitely value for money(the coffee there is refillable) . Thick and strong. I won't have headaches, and I can still go straight to sleep after drinking 4 cups. Which a lot of people couldn't understand.
Other than the normal coffee/espresso, I've also tried the tongkat ali and kacip fatimah. Kacip fatimah coffee is not that strong as it is meant for the 'ladies'. I prefer tongkat ali as its stronger. I know, I know, a lot of people out there think that its only meant for men. But, it is still coffee, and what can I say, as long as it taste good, I'm all out for it. Another thing - nope, it didn't have any 'side effects' on me.If that is what you are thinking of...
The other best thing about drinking coffee is to have it in the cold weather . Especially in winter. But the setback is - your coffee tends to get cold very, very fast. One second its really hot and burned your lips, the other second its too cold. I'm also fond of ice blended coffee as the weather here is suitable for it. Once, just wanted to be crazy - I had ice blended mocha and sat down on a bench outdoors, in Ashford during winter.It was freezing cold. But just imagine, that is how some people feel, drinking coffee and sitting in the hot sun, isn't it?
Currently, I'm am crazy for my own 'mocha' drink mixture. Its a combination of TESCO 3 in 1 drink with 2 spponfuls of MILO. Idlan suggested MILO 3 in 1 with NESCAFE Gold Blend instead. Well, I go for the 'cheaper' ones instead. I'll have that twice a day.
I know its bad as my coffee intake is 70% of the liquid intake in a day. I would only have maximum a glass of water per day. I need to change this diet, but until then...I just enjoy drinking coffee....
Anybody wants to have coffee with me ? Just ring me....
Thursday, July 13
***My Five Factor Personality Profile***
Extroversion:
You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.
The Five Factor Personality Testhttp://www.blogthings.com/thefivefactorpersonalitytest/
You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.
Agreeableness:
You have medium agreeableness.You're generally a friendly and trusting person.But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.
Neuroticism:
You have low neuroticism.You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.
The Five Factor Personality Testhttp://www.blogthings.com/thefivefactorpersonalitytest/
Can I be a writer....and if yes..what type will it be?
| You Should Be a Romance Novelist |
 You can find the romance in any situation, and you would make a talented romance story writer... And while you may be a traditional romantic, you're just as likely to be drawn to quirky or dark love stories. As long as it deals with infatuation, heartbreak, and soulmates - you could write it. |
What Type of Writer Should You Be?
I did this Blogthings test and got this as an answer. At first, I did not want to admit it, then maybe its true. My life has always been about love. Love towards God, my family, my friends, my colleagues, my basketball team which I coach...who ever that is related to me.
32 years being in this world - it taught me a lot of things. Gave me a lot of experiences and stories. Not only from my own, but also from my mom, sister,brother, relatives and also friends.Well, learning is a process - so its definitely still flowing in.
Some of the years that had given me a major impact was:
1996
2004
2005
2006
I did think of writing books for all these major events/stories. These stories will bring sweet and bitter memories, hatred,frustrations and all sorts of emotions back alive.But then, again, knowing me and my laziness, I sort of store it away somewhere in my 'CPU'.
Last Sunday, when I was at my friend's crib, waiting for the final world cup, I replied to a friend's email. Without noticing that I've been watched, my friend asked, " What are you doing? Replying to an email?". I said yes. "Damn, you can definitely write - might as well you write a novel!"
I think it depends who I want to write to.
If I think you are a good listener..than I'll talk and talk and talk.
And if I think you like receiving emails...than I'll write, and write and write.
And now, in becoming a writer, it goes back to the main question....DO I WANT TO DO IT?
Wednesday, July 12
What's happening to me?
This is what has been happening lately:
I'm kind of on cloud nine all the time
All male customers , that I attended to on the phone,sounded really nice and friendly,
Spoken to somebody on the phone, whom I have never called before - for more than 45 minutes ( I just felt like talking)
Emailed somebody in another continent, a new friend whom I just got to know,more than the length of an A4 page (I don't care if he doesn't reply-I just feel like writing)
Entertained calls on my mobile at 1.30am (I usually don't do this)
Keep starring at my PC wallpaper , the SUPERMAN
Not only that, even a friend whom I spoke to yesterday, noticed this too. She said that Superman really had affected my life.
Well, I'm not worried,
because
Its better to have infatuation for Superman rather than somebody else.
Coz you know there's nobody as perfect as him!
I don't care, I think I'm in love with Superman!!!!
I'm kind of on cloud nine all the time
All male customers , that I attended to on the phone,sounded really nice and friendly,
Spoken to somebody on the phone, whom I have never called before - for more than 45 minutes ( I just felt like talking)
Emailed somebody in another continent, a new friend whom I just got to know,more than the length of an A4 page (I don't care if he doesn't reply-I just feel like writing)
Entertained calls on my mobile at 1.30am (I usually don't do this)
Keep starring at my PC wallpaper , the SUPERMAN
Not only that, even a friend whom I spoke to yesterday, noticed this too. She said that Superman really had affected my life.
Well, I'm not worried,
because
Its better to have infatuation for Superman rather than somebody else.
Coz you know there's nobody as perfect as him!
I don't care, I think I'm in love with Superman!!!!
Tuesday, July 11
Life is beautiful...
They said ..it depends on you whether you want it or not...
Lately, I've open my wings and try to fly
After a year of being in a cocoon
I've done some interesting things
I've push my limits...its not up to the maximum yet.
I'm lucky to get to know number of new friends...
Like one of my good old friend said:
Its madness,....
to hate all roses coz you got scratched by one
to give up all your dreams coz one wasn't answered
to give up on your efforts coz one of them failed
to condemn all your friends coz some one was unfaithful to you
remember that another chance will come up,
a new friend,
a new love,
a new life.....
never give up...
coz
Life is indeed Beautiful
Lately, I've open my wings and try to fly
After a year of being in a cocoon
I've done some interesting things
I've push my limits...its not up to the maximum yet.
I'm lucky to get to know number of new friends...
Like one of my good old friend said:
Its madness,....
to hate all roses coz you got scratched by one
to give up all your dreams coz one wasn't answered
to give up on your efforts coz one of them failed
to condemn all your friends coz some one was unfaithful to you
remember that another chance will come up,
a new friend,
a new love,
a new life.....
never give up...
coz
Life is indeed Beautiful
Sunday, July 9
Nice, relaxed dinner...
Lost my temper when trying to look for his apartment somewhere in Setapak area. I even lost my temper to his brother who was trying to help me to find the place.
Yup...seems that I easily lost my patience nowadays.
Managed to find it after a few rounds of driving around the same area.
Had egg sandwich for dinner - and some cookies and jelly for dessert.(nope, it was not a candle light dinner, ok!)
Had a good, casual chat in a relaxed ambience while watching Majalah 3 -they were showing the launch of Dive with Sharks in KL Aquaria and diving in Tioman. Arghh...I've always wanted to do that. Got to safe some money - got to get those SCUBA license.
To my friends who were worried - I'm back home, safe.
Yup...seems that I easily lost my patience nowadays.
Managed to find it after a few rounds of driving around the same area.
Had egg sandwich for dinner - and some cookies and jelly for dessert.(nope, it was not a candle light dinner, ok!)
Had a good, casual chat in a relaxed ambience while watching Majalah 3 -they were showing the launch of Dive with Sharks in KL Aquaria and diving in Tioman. Arghh...I've always wanted to do that. Got to safe some money - got to get those SCUBA license.
To my friends who were worried - I'm back home, safe.
Saturday, July 8
Miss you like crazy
Ammar Kareem and his 'reactions'...
I took these photos a year ago - when I was baby sitting him in Nottingham. I don't know exactly how he look like now - has he grown? has he become less chubby? Can't wait to see him again...which I don't know when.
http://spena15.fotopages.com/
I took these photos a year ago - when I was baby sitting him in Nottingham. I don't know exactly how he look like now - has he grown? has he become less chubby? Can't wait to see him again...which I don't know when.
http://spena15.fotopages.com/
Oh my Superman!!!!
Today, went and watched Superman Returns with some friends. Well, I had to sacrifice my sleep for Superman , but I think it was worth it. The way the movie and the scene was captured - I kind of like it. The best part, at first I was complaining that we only managed to get the 2nd row seats from the screen. But when the movie had started , no regrets. With comfy seats in GSC Mid Valley, didn't feel sleepy at all.
Looking at him, reminded me of a friend I got to know when I was in school. He was also from another boarding school in Johor. He had this look of Superman or at that time it was Christopher Reeves. Tall and good looking. I lost contact with him and met him again when he and his team organised a Blood Donation Drive about 2 years ago - there he was, still tall, still handsome but this time a bit more tanned. He was still the same old person I know 15 years back. Its just that, this time, we are not shy talking to each other anymore.(remember those school days...heehehe). And we still have each other's number. Its just that everybody seems busy nowadays to catch up.
So, there I was, tonight, while watching Superman Returns, smile to myself, remembering those 'younger' days.
Tomorrow - I'm invited for dinner at a friend's place. He's supposed to prepare a nice, decent meal - as he promised me. We'll see how it turns up..Or maybe...he'll be 'Superman' - escape and fly out from the kitchens window to get some food for us!
p/s: I noticed, this time, Superman has a bigger frame. He's tummy and waist is quite big. Maybe its because of the way the scene were shot.Or am I going into 'details' now?
Friday, July 7
Kau ilhamku...
Few months back, I have 2 good friends who would call me at 5am (Malaysia time) from the UK, just to sing to me this song. (we are supposed to be each other's inspiration and strength).They helped me a lot in helping me to go through the problems I had. They were the 1st one to know about it too.It touched me everytime they do this. Everytime they sing this song.
Well,we are still friends, but deep in my heart, I know its different now. It makes me sad as I think things have change, situation have changed, and they have changed. And they haven't called. The worst part is - one of them came back to Malaysia, and didn't even give me a call - I was really looking forward to meet and send him and his family off even if its the last minute at the airport! He might be going for good. Maybe...maybe he has his own reasons of doing this. But for whatever reason it is - its not an excuse if we claim to be friends.
If you read my blog - which I know you don't, I just want you to know that, you don't have to worry about me. I will still hold my promise for us to be friends eventhough I feel that you don't anymore .If you are worried about my status.Don't - because I will not contact you or be in touch with you anymore after this. Let's just memories be memories. Those were the best memories I had in the UK. And I did treasure some of your advices.
And everytime I listened to this Man Bai's song - Kau Ilhamku - It makes me feel sad.....as if I just a lost a friend....
Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah
Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang atau rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan
Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...
Well,we are still friends, but deep in my heart, I know its different now. It makes me sad as I think things have change, situation have changed, and they have changed. And they haven't called. The worst part is - one of them came back to Malaysia, and didn't even give me a call - I was really looking forward to meet and send him and his family off even if its the last minute at the airport! He might be going for good. Maybe...maybe he has his own reasons of doing this. But for whatever reason it is - its not an excuse if we claim to be friends.
If you read my blog - which I know you don't, I just want you to know that, you don't have to worry about me. I will still hold my promise for us to be friends eventhough I feel that you don't anymore .If you are worried about my status.Don't - because I will not contact you or be in touch with you anymore after this. Let's just memories be memories. Those were the best memories I had in the UK. And I did treasure some of your advices.
And everytime I listened to this Man Bai's song - Kau Ilhamku - It makes me feel sad.....as if I just a lost a friend....
Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam kelam
Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah
Sedetik wajahmu muncul
Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang atau rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan
Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini
Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori
Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku
Kau ilhamku...
Oucchh!!! My finger!
During the celebration of GJC, I was busy carrying things here and there, without noticing that I hurt my finger.At first I thought it was just a normal cut. It has been 5 days since Sunday, but the pain has not subsided yet. The tip of my finger, where the 'cut' was, has turned bluish and there was still pain.
Today, I noticed that the little 'cut' has whitish colour surrounding it. Oh no! It has infected my finger. I decided that I had to be my own surgeon. I can't let the pain go on - prepared with a small knife, I cut out the small part where it hurts. Thank god there was no blood, but it had produced a small amount of 'pass'. And after the small 'surgery', this is how my finger looks like - with a small 'hole' on it...
Today, I noticed that the little 'cut' has whitish colour surrounding it. Oh no! It has infected my finger. I decided that I had to be my own surgeon. I can't let the pain go on - prepared with a small knife, I cut out the small part where it hurts. Thank god there was no blood, but it had produced a small amount of 'pass'. And after the small 'surgery', this is how my finger looks like - with a small 'hole' on it...
Thursday, July 6
What Superhero are you??
Oh no!! Only yesterday was I wearing a green top - and everybody in the office called me HULK. Today, I did this questionnaire - and hey presto!! I am supposed to be the HULK!! Is that a coincidence or meant to? Me - turning into HULK....that would be interesting....
| You Are The Hulk |
 You're not really into saving the world. And the world better get out of your way. |
Wednesday, July 5
Perfect life?
It has been 2 days since GJC ended. The ache and pain from our Tug-of-War has also subsided. Thank God!! While driving to work just now, I felt the pain again. This time, its the heart ache.
Another major event has just ended. Last month, it was the basketball tourney. And this time round, its the GJC.And every time, every single fucking time after each event, I will definitely feel sad.I will feel empty. How I wish I have that somebody around to listen to me and my stories, my experiences, the hardwork, the ups and downs.
Yesterday, my horoscope reading said that I'm expecting something which is impossible to achieve, impossible to get.I know we shouldn't believe in all these readings. But..it snapped me out. There's no such thing as a perfect life in this world.Am I just being too careful? Or am I just stupid to let go of someone who has shown interest on me out there? Why am I pushing him away? I don't know....
Some people are happy out there - even if they know their relationship is wrong. But, what is the definition of wrong and right nowadays? I might say it wrong but for other people its the right thing to do. You might do something which is wrong but it makes you happy. And you might do the 'right' things, but you are still sad and feeling empty.
Sometimes, I think, do I just want to go ahead and enjoy life and totally ignore whether its right or wrong as long as I am happy? But then, again, Allah has given us brains to think and religion as guide, faith and hope as strength. As He promised, there will always be good things for us in the future - as long as we are patient.
Patience is virtue.....but for how long can I hold on to it?
Tonight, my sister, her hubby and baby, is leaving for the UK for a 2 weeks holiday to visit my brother and his family in Nottingham.I am happy for them.
How do I feel personally? ...Don't even ask. Is this my destiny? I don't know. Sometimes,..I just wish that I've a friend who can listen and understand..that's all what I'm asking and praying for.That's all. but again, there's always limitation and challenges to it.
Ya Allah,please make me stronger everyday - I'm begging you this. Please make me focus on the kids rather than myself. Amin.
Another major event has just ended. Last month, it was the basketball tourney. And this time round, its the GJC.And every time, every single fucking time after each event, I will definitely feel sad.I will feel empty. How I wish I have that somebody around to listen to me and my stories, my experiences, the hardwork, the ups and downs.
Yesterday, my horoscope reading said that I'm expecting something which is impossible to achieve, impossible to get.I know we shouldn't believe in all these readings. But..it snapped me out. There's no such thing as a perfect life in this world.Am I just being too careful? Or am I just stupid to let go of someone who has shown interest on me out there? Why am I pushing him away? I don't know....
Some people are happy out there - even if they know their relationship is wrong. But, what is the definition of wrong and right nowadays? I might say it wrong but for other people its the right thing to do. You might do something which is wrong but it makes you happy. And you might do the 'right' things, but you are still sad and feeling empty.
Sometimes, I think, do I just want to go ahead and enjoy life and totally ignore whether its right or wrong as long as I am happy? But then, again, Allah has given us brains to think and religion as guide, faith and hope as strength. As He promised, there will always be good things for us in the future - as long as we are patient.
Patience is virtue.....but for how long can I hold on to it?
Tonight, my sister, her hubby and baby, is leaving for the UK for a 2 weeks holiday to visit my brother and his family in Nottingham.I am happy for them.
How do I feel personally? ...Don't even ask. Is this my destiny? I don't know. Sometimes,..I just wish that I've a friend who can listen and understand..that's all what I'm asking and praying for.That's all. but again, there's always limitation and challenges to it.
Ya Allah,please make me stronger everyday - I'm begging you this. Please make me focus on the kids rather than myself. Amin.
Tuesday, July 4
TUG-OF-WAR
Argghhhh!!! my whole body is aching - every part.I knew this was coming.I knew it. But I forgot how bad it is until yesterday. I was trying my very best to avoid participating the T-O-W . Well, I managed to 'escape' the first round with the ladies.
Then, it was the men's turn. We only managed to get 5 men. So, plan B, was to get the basketballers to join the men. And there it was, short of 1 more man to balance up the team. 'Spena!' I heard K.Ana's voice shouted. Here we go. Its not that I wasn't a sport, but I know I'll be getting all these after effect 'ache' and 'pain'.
The last time I was suffering this bad was during my ex-company's T-O-W. Back then, each company was represented by 8 men and 2 ladies - (guess who was one of the 'compulsory' lady member). The rope even 'scrapped' off my arm's skin during the process of 'pulling' . That was back then. Then I thought, maybe this time it won't be that bad as there are only 3 men on the other side and the rest are the girls. And this side there are 7 girls , 2 men and myself. What can girls do compare to men.
Well, I was wrong...totally wrong. Both teams were equally strong. We lost the 1st pull, won the 2nd pull and had to go for the 3rd pull. (I know this is lame excuse for losing but the other side's ground was softer - that's why they won during the 3rd pull). The worst part was, all the 3 pulls lasted for a few minutes before either team won. We had to pull, pause and hold on. That was really taxing and forcing our 'muscles' to work more than it should.
And since yesterday, I don't know about the gals, but every single movement I make triggers pain in my body.
I've uploaded some photos during the GJC. Its at http://spena15.blogs.friendster.com/ . Enjoy!!
Then, it was the men's turn. We only managed to get 5 men. So, plan B, was to get the basketballers to join the men. And there it was, short of 1 more man to balance up the team. 'Spena!' I heard K.Ana's voice shouted. Here we go. Its not that I wasn't a sport, but I know I'll be getting all these after effect 'ache' and 'pain'.
The last time I was suffering this bad was during my ex-company's T-O-W. Back then, each company was represented by 8 men and 2 ladies - (guess who was one of the 'compulsory' lady member). The rope even 'scrapped' off my arm's skin during the process of 'pulling' . That was back then. Then I thought, maybe this time it won't be that bad as there are only 3 men on the other side and the rest are the girls. And this side there are 7 girls , 2 men and myself. What can girls do compare to men.
Well, I was wrong...totally wrong. Both teams were equally strong. We lost the 1st pull, won the 2nd pull and had to go for the 3rd pull. (I know this is lame excuse for losing but the other side's ground was softer - that's why they won during the 3rd pull). The worst part was, all the 3 pulls lasted for a few minutes before either team won. We had to pull, pause and hold on. That was really taxing and forcing our 'muscles' to work more than it should.
And since yesterday, I don't know about the gals, but every single movement I make triggers pain in my body.
I've uploaded some photos during the GJC. Its at http://spena15.blogs.friendster.com/ . Enjoy!!
Monday, July 3
GJC and its effect
We went back to our secondary school to celebrate its 50 years anniversary last weekend. It was a very, very hot weekend. Maybe, because of the heat....it made me do things that I usually don't - like becoming a cat . To prove it...got a photo of me and Esty.Oh..or maybe it was because continous supply of Ponstan and Actifast....for some reason..
For the past 2 days also, I had to force myself to wake up . Thank god, with the supply of caffein from the main sponsor during the GJC , it kept me wide awake, and running all over the place.
I will put up more photos soon. Oh yeah...Idlan, you should have been here. Fyi, Esty joined the 'Tug-of-War' competition.Hehehe......
For the past 2 days also, I had to force myself to wake up . Thank god, with the supply of caffein from the main sponsor during the GJC , it kept me wide awake, and running all over the place.
I will put up more photos soon. Oh yeah...Idlan, you should have been here. Fyi, Esty joined the 'Tug-of-War' competition.Hehehe......
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