I'm a millionaire...

Hehehe...at last, I got my so-called 'new' phone. Yes!! Yes!! Tak sia-sia tunggu for almost 3 weeks for it to be 'unlocked'. This will definitely make me busy for the next few days. Got to get Alan to help me set my GPRS, MMS and email settings on the phone. I love it. A million thanks to my bro for it.


Makcik kayo! Makcik kayo! hhehehe....Just got some deno for Indon rupiah. And why do I need to do that? You are right! I am going to Jakarta tomorrow till Sunday. Yes! At last the 'free' AA ticket which I got months ago will be utilised over the weekend. Alhamdulillah, a dream has come true.

So ladies and gentlemen, please behave over the weekend when I'm not in town.

Jakarta, here I come.

Unexplained happenings

Last night I got a call from my sister at about 9pm. She said the wall of the house opposite my mom's has collapsed. It seems that it was raining heavily around 6pm when it happened. And alhamdulillah there was no car passing by and parked there. (Our friends and family always park at the roadside there everytime visiting us).

I took some pics below:

Last night , at 11pm the MBSA had cleared the way.
The whole wall collapsed.
It hit the tiang elektrik - it broke and needed to be replaced. This morning, the view from inside my mom's house.
The house is on sale for a 1million.
Still not cleared yet.

Me and my sister believed something else was the cause of the landslide. Looking at it, it reminded us of the major landslides that happened in out country i.e. genting, NKVE etc.

A little bit about the house, nobody stayed there, or dare to stay there for more than 1 night since 15 years ago. The house is always on sale. The current owner, bought it sometime last year, did a major renovation, and organised a grand house warming for family and friends. That night , the whole family stayed for a night.

The next morning, they left. 2 days later, the house was on sale again .

Not only that, my sister, mom and brother in-law had come across hearing weird sounds and caught a glimpse of something in the compound at night. Sounds more like a huge animal running up and down at the side of the gate.

And the house is supposed to be empty. Totally empty.

A very dear friend

It was a pleasant surprise when a good friend called this morning. He was one of the guy who would call me at 4am or 5am and sing Kau Ilhamku by Man Bai, 2 years ago.

He was one also the person who gave me list of advise when I had issues with my marriage 3 years ago. He was the one who taught me how to make sushi (which my friends loveeeee) and other japanese cooking.

I guess, we have this special bond even if we don't call each other that often, around 3 or 4 months once, we know that we will be there for each other. We will listen to each other and provide emotional support and advise.

Last Sunday, a week after my sushi class session at Jazz's place, I sms-ed him to inform that I made sushi , at last, after keeping the recipe I learnt from him for more than 2 years. I didn't get any reply - well everybody's busy nowadays, that's ok.

But this morning he called. Seems that he wanted to update me that his wife just gave birth to a new baby girl on last Sunday. Alhamdulillah. I'm hoping that everything would turn out better for him soon as he has been in a very bad situation for the past 1 year or so. Not his fault, but most times things happen when we don't expect and have plans . I wish I could help unfortunately we are too far away from each other.


Sam , my doa is always with you and your family and you know that I will always be there for you. Hearing from my brother that you dropped some tears upon telling him your suffering breaks my heart.
Be strong and hope everything will get better soon, Insya Allah.

p/s: It is not often that we meet somebody and just 'clicked' right away. Sam is one of the precious one.

Made in China....this time its original!

Majority of us know that Olympics is coming soon - venue will be in Beijing.

Well, this time, without any doubt, I got a gift from China . Originally made in China. Hehehe....Thanks to the couple; they gave me this.

Nicely packed. Maybe I should just keep it in the box and not use it. Sayang lah.

p/s: This reminds me of my trip to Germany a year before the World Cup and I didn't even buy anything from there! Dang!

The Meet

After almost 2 months (I think so) too busy with individual activities and also due to different shifts, last night The Lord of The Food met again for supper at Murni@SS2.

Picture says a thousand words....hehehe....

What else could we say,....stress and good food goes along very well.

Sabar....

Ya Allah,

Kau makbulkan lah doa orang-orang yang teraniaya.

Amin.


p/s: This is the only way for me to bersabar everyday .....

The young ones

Faces of Ammar, Khadijah and Dhiya.

They are so adorable.

When I thought everything is going to be ok..

The only family picture taken.

This year, even though we are just in February, the 2nd month of the year, I've faced loads of challenges. What I could only say is, it is really like a gigantic roller coaster ride, the feeling of going up, the torturing of going down non stop until now . I don't really know about others but when the roller coaster goes down, everytime, I have this pain between my stomach and heart.(somewhere there lah). And yes, that pain is what I have been having for the past 7 weeks in 2008.

The recent one was my visit to dad's place. Yes, I was nervous and afraid and didn't know what to expect. Just imagine the last time I really met him, sit down and talk to him was about 10 years ago. Yes, that long. With my brother's encouragement , I agreed to meet him and settled the pending issues once and for all. What I was looking for is just to ask for forgiveness and to forgive him and move on with a new chapter of my life with him around in my life.

So off we went to his house, my brother and his family, my sister and his family and myself on Sunday 10th Feb earlier. It started off as everybody was trying to pretend there was no problem at all. Then my brother started of by bringing up the pending issues which has been kept in the closet for a long time. It was an emotional one. Upon writing this my eyes are starting to get watery. Argghh...me being the sensitive one in the family. But on that day, not only me, my sister (the tough one) and my brother (the cool one) cried till their eyes were swollen.

Not everything was solved, was settled on that day. But I remembered myself saying this to everybody there, " I know not everybody is happy with the outcome today. There are some issues which are still pending and not able to be solved. But this is a start of something. There is a blessing , there is a reason why we are all here now, meeting and talking. Even though some things not solved, but I believe as we move towards the future, Insya Allah, we will try to work other things out."

"There should not be a high expectation out of this meeting however I hope everybody understands that we all have our lives to go on with. The difference is that we are in talking terms now"

For me, it does not matter anymore whether it was my fault or my dad's. I just want to move forward. But not for my sister. I guess for her, a lot of damage was done as she is the most manja one to him. I persuaded him to give her time to cool down.

Anyways, at the end of the session, I got to hug my dad and kiss him on the cheek after not doing so for 10 years. 10 long years. It was an emotional one.

That was an end to something 'bad' and a start to a new life. Alhamdulillah.

But that's not it.

Yesterday, a few hours before my brother return to the UK, we got to know my dad has been admitted. Both his kidneys has failed. He is now in PPUM. My brother, his wife and myself spent almost the whole day in the hospital yesterday to find out the situation, make arrangements and settle some things. I met some of the doctors who are going to monitor his condition during his stay there.

And I could say that his condition is bad. Really bad.

Discussing on my dad's condition.

I don't know what to expect next. I'm so lost and tired.

Nenek tua yang sangka bagus

Macamana kau boleh cakap yang kau ni profesional?
Macamana kau boleh 'claim' yang kau ni bagus dan handal dalam mengendalikan hal2 ni?
Macamana kau boleh kata yang kau tidak menyebelahi sesiapa dan bersikap neutral?

.....ada ke patut kau tanya soalan yang berkenaan dengan khabar angin apa yang telah berlaku kat aku sedangkan kita sedang berbicara secara formal?

Apa kau ingat aku ni bodoh?
Apa kau ingat aku ni macam lembu, dicucuk kat hidung dan mengikut je kemana ditarik macam sesetengah orang lain?
Apakah kau dah takde modal lain untuk menembak dan menghentam ku?
Apa kau rasa aku telah mencabar kedudukan kau dengan jawapan ku yang sememangnya ku telah sediakan?
Kenapa....tak percaye ke?

Maaf, tidak sekali-kali aku akan bawa diriku ke bawah setelah bertungkus-lumus selama ini
Dan aku kira, dari sesi semalam, kau juga tak berjaya membuat ku tunduk layu
Tapi yang aku kesalkan
Kau cuma ingin mendengar apa yang ingin didengari
Kau ternyata bukan seorang yang kreatif untuk membuka minda mu
Terutama untuk menerima pendapat baru

Satu saja yang boleh ku ucapkan pada kau dan kuncu-kuncu kau

Semoga berjaya . Bak ku katakan didalam sesi semalam, aku sudah bersedia untuk berlari semula. Kau?

p/s: mungkin kau 'gubra' sebab kau telah dibayar dengan banyaknya untuk melakukan ini semua dengan anggapan ia adalah senang. Akan tetapi muncul aku yang berpendapat lain dari yang lain yang memberi pendapat yang tajam dan pedih. heheheh

The FAMILY

Just imagine we had this for our makan2 session yesterday. We invited close relatives for a simple doa selamat for lunch ; and later my brother and sister invited their friends after maghrib for dinner.

We also took a break in the middle of the 2 sessions and went to another relative's house just about 5 mnts drive away.

My brother is leaving again soon, so this is the best time to lepak together as a family.Only once in a few years we get to lepak as a whole family like this. With the whole family around and good food, it was PERFECT.

Love in every......employee

A colleague of mine who is in my team has 'belanja-d' us these ice-cream - for the whole team , 10 of us.

Thanks Dean! It is definitely a surprise! Happy Valentine's Day to you too!

p/s: This is what we call a healthy celebration of Valentine's day among colleagues.

The 'V' day is here

I received an sms in the middle of the night,

" My dear wife, Happy Valentine's Day. Love you."

Ah...I love you too. How sweet.He remembers.

Suddenly, I heard the alarm went off.
Arghhh!! It is a dream again! How I wish it was true.....


To all the married people out there ; IF you want to celebrate this particular day, please, please, please do it with your family or wife. Not your girl friends or boyfriends.
(This is a free community message to all)

You call yourself 'Caring Malaysians'?

Last Sunday , I went to OU with my sist, her hubby and her baby girl for dinner. As we are all aware, parking on a Sunday evening there is a bit of a trouble to find. We were in separate cars, one tailing another.
My brother in-law managed to park his car and I had to park it at an illegal place. While waiting for him to unload the baby's stroller, a car nearby , which was parked between where I parked and my brother in-law's, went out. So, I told my sist and him to stand at the parking lot while I I reverse my car which was only 2 spaces away. Yes, it only would take me about less than 2 mnts.

Unfortunately a stupid , ignorant 'C' couple, came, and reversed into the space where my sist and brother in-law was standing. The worst part is, that ignorant couple just reversed their car and ignored that the baby was there also! The driver just refused to acknowledge that the space was taken as I was already 1/2 way there!

How can these people behave in such a way? This is when I believe even if they are highly educated, they seemed not to use their brain to think, and feel. Not only that how could they ignore a baby was there? Not even acknowledging by looking at my family members and maybe have the guts to open the window and say that they want the space and not just by reversing their car.

Stupid , dumb, ignorant, people! And you call yourselves 'caring Malaysians'?

The Double 'V' situation

I've been feeling down lately. Really down.
Not because of my love life, but because of the place where I get my 'daily pot of rice' is not in a good situation. It is so demotivating me.

It is really demotivating until I don't feel like turning up. The only thing which still makes the place a fun place is the team that I have. They are a bunch of crazy, fun but hardworking people.
And I know I still have responsibility towards them. That what makes me going. And I am a professional. I have been performing and I promise to myself I will perform till the final day (hope not that soon).

From my experience, this is just a hiccup, a small challenge I need to face. Which reminded me of my experience in company M few years back. Not a good memory as a start, but the V(victory) after that was sweet. Really sweet. And my enemies, returned, to claim themselves as my friends. Why do I feel history is going to repeat itself? Maybe it is.
But until then, I just need to remind myself to remain calm and just stay professional - not giving any loopholes for mistakes. No. No way jose.

On another note, in 2 more days the 'V' day will arrive. Yes, the day that most couples celebrate all out, organise a 'special' occasion or dinner or whatsoever for their loved ones. Well, there are a lot of opinions about that out there however what my friends ( Bakawali, Ardy and SD) have written, is worth a read.

For me, everyday is a 'V' day. To add to that, last night, far from across the Pacific Ocean and Indian ocean, with the assistance from our so called YM Voice technology, Habibi literally, was on his knees, proposing to me , to be his special one, begged me to accept him as my special one for the coming years ahead.

I just wish at times that you are here with me , everyday. (I know you call me everyday without fail, but me being me...)

Thank you for the support, understanding and patience you have given me all these while, especially during my hard times.

I LOVE YOU HABIBI.

Go Japanese again

This is what happened when we, 3 beradik meet for dinner outside. I couldn't even remember when was the last time we had dinner together like this. Coincidently, today all of us including my brother's wife and kids and my sister's hubby and daughter went to my dad's house to settle some issues which has been outstanding for a longggg time. ( I'll write about this later).

After having my very own sushi last night, tonight we head to Shogun's in OU for dinner. OMG -the buffet spread is awesome. No words could explain. Especially when all of us love japanese food and me and my sister are crazy about sashimi!

We love all the raw food - salmon, tuna, cod, tatami beef (excellent!)
And they had the seafood too which includes mussels, prawns, another type of shellfish which looks like the 'SHELL' logo , escargot and not forgetting the oysters (forgotten to take the pic of it). They put loads of cheese on it and baked it. Yummy!!
We also had teppanyaki style cooked food. You just got to choose what you want them to cook and after about 5 mnts, the thing is ready. We tried duck breast, lamb, king mushroom etc...
Me, my sist and her daughter, my brother and his wife and Ammar. The drinks were also free flow - not like some places where they charged for the juices or coffee. The mango juice was my fave. I think I had too much of it tonight.

I guess we were all quite stressed up with the outcome of the previous event, and that explains the quantity of food intake by everybody.
But, no doubt, I would recommend this place for sushi and sashimi lovers. For RM55++ per person for dinner, it is worth the price when most of the things you eat is the fresh sashimis.

p/s: maybe next time I should just suggest the girls to go there instead of making our own sushi.

My very own sushi

Saturday, May 21st 2005, was my first posting about japanese food and sushi. That was when I learnt how to make sushi, sashimi and tempura at Skinny Sumo Restaurant in Nottingham which I have written here.

Today, after about 2 years and 8 months, I start making sushi again. Thanks to the support given by Jazz, Hana and Dalie - even though they have not tried my sushi yet, they 'trusted' it would taste ok. I was so afraid it would turn out bad.

Alhamdulillah, after a crash course on sushi 'rolling' to Hana, this was what was prepared with a big help from her, who's an expert in rolling the 'maki' by now. She's also kind of 'creative' in creating the different filling and tastes.

Then Hana also prepared her famous Konyaku jelly.

So, this time round, at last, we managed to have a more 'healthier' food for the gals. No lamb.No beef. No cheese.Only sushi,vege tempura and konyaku jelly.

I wasted 2++ years !! Dang!

I don't have any words for it.
I was damn angry about it until I couldn't even talk or remember about it.
The moment it came back across my mind my eyes were teary.
Not to mention when my colleagues asked about it.
The experience was really bad.
How can you claim you are good when you cannot even relate my experience to my application.
How can you say that I have to start fresh again?
What about my contribution for the past 2+ years?
How can you say it is not fair to other people if we don't start from basic when in the 1st place itself, it is not right as there was no appraisal at all for the past 2 years!

I could actually see the 'good' thing of this exercise.
Unfortunately what I could say is yes, you are good in managing business really into business mindset thingy but you do not have people skills at all. Nothing.
And that is the difference with me and you.
I might not be the person who has the 'business mindset' but I am a people person.
And I am good in what I do.
Maybe it is just not for me - there must be a good reason.
Mesti ada hikmahnya....
So, thank you very much. I'm just taking the up the challenge for a 2nd one but not really into it.
I just want to get the opportunity again, to voice out my mind.


Thanks to Nur, I met her last night to cool down myself. If she had not insisted to meet me for dinner till midnight, I didn't know what I would have done, where I would've gone to. Because I was reall p*ssed off.


While waiting for our food....I wish I could swim in there to cool myself down.
I gobbled up everything and yet still feeling like eating. Dangerous eating like this.
Due to my persuasion, we visited this 'guy'

And ended up eating this....

We are multi-racial

Doesn't matter what race or religion you are, you need to decorate the office for the coming celebration. And this was what happened in our office few days back.

To all my Chinese friends out there ;

GONG XI FA CHAI.

FB and its magic.

An 'old' friend of mine , who was my ex-classmate and school mate when we were in the primary school ,posted this pic on his FB page and tagged me into it. This pic was taken when we were in Standard 2 with Cikgu Latifah (not sure whether she is still around).
And last night, with a sprained shoulder ,I met my this guy for supper after not meeting him since 1987 - that's a very long 20 years.

Maybe I should do more of this 'jejak kasih'.

Well, this is one of the wonders what Facebook can do for us.