Hmm...what have I eaten for the past one week?
Let's see...
Sunday
Sahur - Vege Omellette and green tea
Buka - dates ,and pasta with spicy mushroom sauce
Monday
Sahur - chicken sausage mix with vege omellette and green tea
Buka - 4 dates, 4 slices of wholemeal bread with cheese, hot green tea
Tuesday
Sahur - nothing (overslept coz a friend called me at 3am and we chatted for 10mnts)
Buka - vegetarian fried mee hoon, dates and gree tea
Wednesday
Sahur - wholemeal bread with milo
Buka - 4 dates, 4 slices of wholemeal bread with cheese, hot green tea
Thursday
Sahur - vege omelette again with green tea
Buka - 4 dates, 4 slices of wholemeal bread with cheese, hot green tea
Friday
Sahur - what else...the same thing
Buka - dates, 4 slices of wholemeal bread with Campbell's mushroom soup and green tea
Not that I'm on a diet but I just can't swallow anything else currently other than the wholemeal bread and the dates. Everything else will make me feel like throwing up after eating it. I wish I could eat some kuih or things like murtabak but the minute I look at those items at the gerai infront of the office, I just can't bear with the feeling of being sick after I eat.Its just not an enjoyable experience and something which I would like to avoid. I don't even have any cravings for anything until this morning.
This morning, I baked a cake for the CAGERS as K.Ana will be going to KK to buka puasa with them. I couldn't join and didn't know what to give, so, what else...chocolate cake sounds good. And driving from my house to hers to drop off the cake was a nightmare as I was really, really tempted with the smell of the freshly baked cake.Argghh....
This evening, we just got the new work rota for the coming month.I will need to work 1pm to 9pm shift 3 weeks in a row until raya. Only next week I'm available for buka puasa with some friends. Other than that, it might be only be on weekends.
Let's see if anybody wants to go out for buka puasa with me next week.....
Friday, September 29
Thursday, September 28
P.S. I Love You
" Friends and family came and went, sometimes helping her with her tears, other times making her laugh.But even in her laughter, there was something missing.She never seemed to be truly happy;she just seemed to be passing time while she waited for something else. She was tired of just existing; she wanted to live. but what was the point of living, when there's no life in it?"
I just finished reading this book titled , P.S.I Love You. This is the first time a book made me laugh, cry, touched as if I was watching a movie. I just felt I was the person in the book. Maybe because we had the similar feelings eventhough her hubby died, but still, I also lost somebody I love.
Sometimes I feel that when I'm in happy moments, its just temporary moments, whom I had to 'borrow' it from other friends and even some of them, their family members.Its like a drama. You have to put up another face for that point of time and play along with the situation, and when you are back to your own 'world', you'll be alone again.
And this is the reality....
But today,I made myself exist again in some people's life
Even if they have forgotten that I existby sending good luck cards and greeting cards
Hope it reaches them on time...
Even then,
It still won't make any difference to me
And my life...
I just finished reading this book titled , P.S.I Love You. This is the first time a book made me laugh, cry, touched as if I was watching a movie. I just felt I was the person in the book. Maybe because we had the similar feelings eventhough her hubby died, but still, I also lost somebody I love.
Sometimes I feel that when I'm in happy moments, its just temporary moments, whom I had to 'borrow' it from other friends and even some of them, their family members.Its like a drama. You have to put up another face for that point of time and play along with the situation, and when you are back to your own 'world', you'll be alone again.
And this is the reality....
But today,I made myself exist again in some people's life
Even if they have forgotten that I existby sending good luck cards and greeting cards
Hope it reaches them on time...
Even then,
It still won't make any difference to me
And my life...
Saturday, September 23
Ramadhan is here
Days have gone by, months have changed, and Ramadhan is here again, as usual.Alhamdulillah, I am still here, to celebrate the coming of Ramadhan.
I'm not sure how will my schedule and routine this coming Ramadhan be different from last year but I know its not going to be the same. Last year, I lost almost 8kgs - not only because of fasting, but also due to the problems I had. I spent 2 weeks fasting in JB - most of the time 'sahur' and 'berbuka' by only eating bread. The basketballers were always with me during the 2 weeks. The other 2 weeks was off here and there since I did not have any jobs at that point of time- and I can't remember in detail. Oh yeah...I was also busy going for interviews between KL and JB.
The difference this year is I've got a job and my mental state is very much stable. Instead of being with the basketballers, I'll be with my colleagues most of the time.Its on shift therefore I've requested to be placed into certain shifts because of the fasting hours. I foresee myself doing overtime minimum of 2 hours daily and also not taking any leave for the coming Hari Raya. Celebrating Raya does not mean anything at all to me anymore other than celebrating the success of completing Ramadhan.
To all my family and friends out there, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan.
I'm in the state of feeling like going to hibernate again.Don't know why. Maybe its the effect of Ramadhan. I'm feeling down...really down.I got to avoid this feeling.Its not good.
p/s: I would love to do one thing though, to go back and berpuasa in Terengganu with my grandma on one of the days, Insya Allah
I'm not sure how will my schedule and routine this coming Ramadhan be different from last year but I know its not going to be the same. Last year, I lost almost 8kgs - not only because of fasting, but also due to the problems I had. I spent 2 weeks fasting in JB - most of the time 'sahur' and 'berbuka' by only eating bread. The basketballers were always with me during the 2 weeks. The other 2 weeks was off here and there since I did not have any jobs at that point of time- and I can't remember in detail. Oh yeah...I was also busy going for interviews between KL and JB.
The difference this year is I've got a job and my mental state is very much stable. Instead of being with the basketballers, I'll be with my colleagues most of the time.Its on shift therefore I've requested to be placed into certain shifts because of the fasting hours. I foresee myself doing overtime minimum of 2 hours daily and also not taking any leave for the coming Hari Raya. Celebrating Raya does not mean anything at all to me anymore other than celebrating the success of completing Ramadhan.
To all my family and friends out there, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan.
I'm in the state of feeling like going to hibernate again.Don't know why. Maybe its the effect of Ramadhan. I'm feeling down...really down.I got to avoid this feeling.Its not good.
p/s: I would love to do one thing though, to go back and berpuasa in Terengganu with my grandma on one of the days, Insya Allah
Friday, September 22
I need a break!
I feel that I need a break again. I need to be at the beach - to cool down myself, to relax, to unwind, to enjoy the sound of the waves and just not think of anything. So, I went through my photo collections, and I found these.
These were taken about 2 years ago during my trip to The Andaman, Langkawi. I wish I could go there again. As I can't take leave and due to financial issues currently, I can only close my eyes, and imagine myself returning to this place, while enjoying the 'Perfect balance' at the beach bar and listening to the sound of the waves and the birds.
These were taken about 2 years ago during my trip to The Andaman, Langkawi. I wish I could go there again. As I can't take leave and due to financial issues currently, I can only close my eyes, and imagine myself returning to this place, while enjoying the 'Perfect balance' at the beach bar and listening to the sound of the waves and the birds.
Wednesday, September 20
I'm back on track
My horoscope for today :
Today you may show more concern for what you owe and what you earn. If it looks right but still feels wrong... then with your feelings go along. You may seem more insightful or intuitive ...even somewhat psychic. You now may have more things to say than you would on an average day. For your opinion you might fight - or say a critic can't be right. Now your sense of humor may be appreciated more at home than at work. You could (or should) be more self-less and compassionate in your one-on-one relations. Soon you may attract someone who sees you as sensual and desirable. Money won't buy happiness - but it could pay for some pleasures
Hmm....... I had a fight with someone whom I felt in the first place understands me , but unfortunately I was wrong.He gave me all type of advices, which are good , but not applicable to me. Its mentioned clearly, "If it looks right but still feels wrong... then with your feelings go along." .
Sorry dear, I think our expectations are different. Very much different. I might be 'uptight' and trying too hard as per you perceived, but I still have my values and beliefs....and you don't even know me.
And I also rang somebody who has been out of the radar for quite sometime. I'm glad to say that I did , coz he sounded still the same old pal that I knew a year ago.Maybe he does have some problems at his end, on the other side of the world, that is why he hadn't called me. But after talking to him for nearly 10minutes, I guess both of us missed those moments. No doubt about it.
And that is the type of chocolate I would indulge in....
Something that is not easy to get
As we might not be able to afford it all the time
And....
I am totally satisfied
With my choice of chocolate today...
Today you may show more concern for what you owe and what you earn. If it looks right but still feels wrong... then with your feelings go along. You may seem more insightful or intuitive ...even somewhat psychic. You now may have more things to say than you would on an average day. For your opinion you might fight - or say a critic can't be right. Now your sense of humor may be appreciated more at home than at work. You could (or should) be more self-less and compassionate in your one-on-one relations. Soon you may attract someone who sees you as sensual and desirable. Money won't buy happiness - but it could pay for some pleasures
Hmm....... I had a fight with someone whom I felt in the first place understands me , but unfortunately I was wrong.He gave me all type of advices, which are good , but not applicable to me. Its mentioned clearly, "If it looks right but still feels wrong... then with your feelings go along." .
Sorry dear, I think our expectations are different. Very much different. I might be 'uptight' and trying too hard as per you perceived, but I still have my values and beliefs....and you don't even know me.
And I also rang somebody who has been out of the radar for quite sometime. I'm glad to say that I did , coz he sounded still the same old pal that I knew a year ago.Maybe he does have some problems at his end, on the other side of the world, that is why he hadn't called me. But after talking to him for nearly 10minutes, I guess both of us missed those moments. No doubt about it.
And that is the type of chocolate I would indulge in....
Something that is not easy to get
As we might not be able to afford it all the time
And....
I am totally satisfied
With my choice of chocolate today...
Tuesday, September 19
Life is like a box of chocolate
Like Forrest Gump once said, "Life is like a box of chocolate.You never know what you're gonna get".
Well, chocolates, chocolates, chocolates.
They can make you fat (as some people say, but I don't believe this)
They can give you energy
They can be a good friend when we are down (during PMS especially)
They can also be sinful when its eaten with something else like ice-cream
They can make you feel good
They can be almost everything
That depends on what you expect them to be
But when we buy chocolate nowadays
We know what's the content like
We know how good it taste like
The more expensive the price is
The better it should taste
The more attractive the packaging is
And in which country it was produced
The more 'excellent' the texture is
It all ends up
On what type of chocolate we want
Which brand we love
Which country produced the best and afforadable to us
Its all in our hands
We might not enjoy the good ones all the time
As we might not be able to afford it
But once in a while
We try our best
To save up and indulge ourselves
In this excellent chocolate
Proven either through experience
Or through recommendation by friends and family
Or by its excellent branding and marketing
The decision is on us
To enjoy or not to enjoy
The chocolate we have in our hands
Well, I don't know whether all the above make sense
But what I know is
The best chocolate
Are always the one
Which comes from somebody else as a present
Unexpectedly
And after feeling really 'down' for the whole day today
I got this from my boss who just returned from the UK.
A 1kg cadbury.....hmmm...yummy....
And guess what.....
I feel like having the 'chocolate'
which I haven't had for months..
Its not going to be easy
As I have to take some risks
But
I hope it turns out well....
Let's wait for tomorrow
And nope , I don't like strawberries with chocolate
So, it has nothing to do with any Datuks..
Well, chocolates, chocolates, chocolates.
They can make you fat (as some people say, but I don't believe this)
They can give you energy
They can be a good friend when we are down (during PMS especially)
They can also be sinful when its eaten with something else like ice-cream
They can make you feel good
They can be almost everything
That depends on what you expect them to be
But when we buy chocolate nowadays
We know what's the content like
We know how good it taste like
The more expensive the price is
The better it should taste
The more attractive the packaging is
And in which country it was produced
The more 'excellent' the texture is
It all ends up
On what type of chocolate we want
Which brand we love
Which country produced the best and afforadable to us
Its all in our hands
We might not enjoy the good ones all the time
As we might not be able to afford it
But once in a while
We try our best
To save up and indulge ourselves
In this excellent chocolate
Proven either through experience
Or through recommendation by friends and family
Or by its excellent branding and marketing
The decision is on us
To enjoy or not to enjoy
The chocolate we have in our hands
Well, I don't know whether all the above make sense
But what I know is
The best chocolate
Are always the one
Which comes from somebody else as a present
Unexpectedly
And after feeling really 'down' for the whole day today
I got this from my boss who just returned from the UK.
A 1kg cadbury.....hmmm...yummy....
And guess what.....
I feel like having the 'chocolate'
which I haven't had for months..
Its not going to be easy
As I have to take some risks
But
I hope it turns out well....
Let's wait for tomorrow
And nope , I don't like strawberries with chocolate
So, it has nothing to do with any Datuks..
Sunday, September 17
A week of silent...
I've been busy
I've been away
I've been sick
I've been down
I've been up
I've been bad
I've been good
I've been on pain killers
I can say that,
There was nothing interesting to write for the past one week
But...at the end of today, I got myself a bonus (well, I considered it as a bonus)
I went to watch the basketball finals Petronas Cup between Penang and Selangor
Penang won this time round
And guess what?
I managed to get my photo taken with the MVP... ..at last...
Jangan jealous....heheh....
More photos here
I've been away
I've been sick
I've been down
I've been up
I've been bad
I've been good
I've been on pain killers
I can say that,
There was nothing interesting to write for the past one week
But...at the end of today, I got myself a bonus (well, I considered it as a bonus)
I went to watch the basketball finals Petronas Cup between Penang and Selangor
Penang won this time round
And guess what?
I managed to get my photo taken with the MVP... ..at last...
Jangan jealous....heheh....
More photos here
Saturday, September 9
Heart ache, Eli and chocolate
Today, I went to Ikano. Not to shop, but to go to the Alliance bank there.(It has ample parking space and no traffic jam).Coincidently, there was a POPULAR book fair.Quite good bargains - prices can go as low as 70% discount.
Since my next plan was straight to go home to rest and nothing else, so I spent about 1 hour going thru the fair.Flipping from books to books.There were stationeries sold, novels and story books, children books, general reading and also quite a number of exercise books.
Exercise books - hmm...I was interested with the one which has the tile of "Exersice steps to Keep Fit". Oh..they also have tummy toners, yoga, 10 mnts exercise and a few others.
Then I came across a counter full of cook books. Another interest of mine...
And then, there it was, one of the books, which has the title 'SUSHI' . Something that I was really interested in taking up seriously and considered to start a business.
Suddenly, I felt pain in my heart.Pain that I can't cure.Pain that will be there, forever.
PAIN THAT WAS CAUSED BY A BROKEN PROMISE OF A DEAR FRIEND.
I've tried, and I can't get rid of it as it comes and go continously. I just have to keep reminding myself, that there are other people out there who care for me. Eventhough that does not help much.
And currently, these are the few items that makes me forget about the sadness...temporarily.
The Eli (mind you its from Thailand and by Jim Thompson - the famous brand there) was given by my boss yesterday as a gift and the chocolate which I bought myself to release stress....hehehe....
Since my next plan was straight to go home to rest and nothing else, so I spent about 1 hour going thru the fair.Flipping from books to books.There were stationeries sold, novels and story books, children books, general reading and also quite a number of exercise books.
Exercise books - hmm...I was interested with the one which has the tile of "Exersice steps to Keep Fit". Oh..they also have tummy toners, yoga, 10 mnts exercise and a few others.
Then I came across a counter full of cook books. Another interest of mine...
And then, there it was, one of the books, which has the title 'SUSHI' . Something that I was really interested in taking up seriously and considered to start a business.
Suddenly, I felt pain in my heart.Pain that I can't cure.Pain that will be there, forever.
PAIN THAT WAS CAUSED BY A BROKEN PROMISE OF A DEAR FRIEND.
I've tried, and I can't get rid of it as it comes and go continously. I just have to keep reminding myself, that there are other people out there who care for me. Eventhough that does not help much.
And currently, these are the few items that makes me forget about the sadness...temporarily.
The Eli (mind you its from Thailand and by Jim Thompson - the famous brand there) was given by my boss yesterday as a gift and the chocolate which I bought myself to release stress....hehehe....
Monday, September 4
Flowers and trees.....hmmm
Some shots I took a year ago .... the trees and flowers... I don't really like flowers but I think this is beautiful.
Surprise birthday party
Usually, people organised a surprise birthday party on the day or within a few days of our birthday.Well, I got mine yesterday.
The girls were good in hiding it from me. As usual, after the training, I went out dinner with Esty. Splurged ourselves with the usual ABC and Cikong, and this time round, with "Ikan Pari Bakar' - it was excellent.I returned to the dorm, feeling stuffed, but also guilty as I told the girls I would see them at 8.30m but only reached there 9pm.
When I entered the dorm, it was dark, lights were switched off, but I could still see all of them were on their beds, some of them were lying asleep on the floor and also the mattresses. Well, I thought the girls were really tired as the training was quite tough.
As I was preparing to take my stuff to get a shower, one of the girl stood up, walked to the lights and switched it on. And the rest suddenly shouted, "SURPRISE!!"
And some of them scolded me because they said I was supposed to switch on the lights right after I walked in so that they can surprise me. Surprise birthday and also getting scolded at the same time!
We had fun as they actually prepared singing performances by each forms. And the best part, they made their very own 'Secret Recipe' cake for me. Check out the cake! Kalah Siti Nurhaliza's wedding cake!
The girls were good in hiding it from me. As usual, after the training, I went out dinner with Esty. Splurged ourselves with the usual ABC and Cikong, and this time round, with "Ikan Pari Bakar' - it was excellent.I returned to the dorm, feeling stuffed, but also guilty as I told the girls I would see them at 8.30m but only reached there 9pm.
When I entered the dorm, it was dark, lights were switched off, but I could still see all of them were on their beds, some of them were lying asleep on the floor and also the mattresses. Well, I thought the girls were really tired as the training was quite tough.
As I was preparing to take my stuff to get a shower, one of the girl stood up, walked to the lights and switched it on. And the rest suddenly shouted, "SURPRISE!!"
And some of them scolded me because they said I was supposed to switch on the lights right after I walked in so that they can surprise me. Surprise birthday and also getting scolded at the same time!
We had fun as they actually prepared singing performances by each forms. And the best part, they made their very own 'Secret Recipe' cake for me. Check out the cake! Kalah Siti Nurhaliza's wedding cake!
My trip to Singapore
I've been to Singapore quite a number of times, but I don't know why, I always take for granted in taking photos there. This time round, I brought my camera and managed to snap a few shots. It was just a short break from my coaching schedule in JB.Since didn't plan in spending anything - we just went for a walk and 'makan-makan'.
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