That's it! Final tag for the year....

Seademon has managed to come up with a set of questions for this tag ; with the purpose of making me hate him( I think so) , as I have written in my previous post that I wouldn't need to do anymore tag for 2007. But after going through the questions, I think its kind of good as it reminded me that overall, Alhamdulillah, I had a great time in 2007.

So, these are the Q&As:

1. How has 2007 been for you in a nutshell?
Its like a fairy tale .

2. Apart from your family members, name one person who has made you happy in 2007.
Who else.....Habibi lah. The coming 19th Feb would be the 1 year 'anniversary'

3. Do you feel you are better off, or worse off, than you were in 2006?
Better in some areas, worse in another. I am still a human.

4. Where was the best holiday trip for you in 2007?
To think of it, I have never had 4 excellent holidays in a year through out my whole life till now. All 4, provided me with different experiences and feelings. It was Cork, Ireland, then Desaru (when my girls won), Mt Kinabalu and the last one was Karambunai in Sabah. 2007 is definitely a record. Wow! I'm amazed myself.

5. Name 3 positive things you have achieved in 2007.
Hmm...no need to know the one I've achieved. I need to improve to achieve the ones I didn't!

6. Name the best movie you saw in 2007.
I forgot! I remember I didn't watch Transformers, and also Simpson.

7. Name 5 friends that you have made in 2007.
Bakawali, Seademon (yeah..thanks to you I have another tag to do for 2007), Guile, Kilpatrick (yet to meet) and Fa1zan (not exactly new, he was my ex-classmate when I was in standard 2-6 and we manage to catch up again in FB).

8. What new year's resolution for 2007 that you have not achieved?
Nothing except to keep fit. Managed only to do it 1/2 of the year...hehehe... Other than that I usually don't have new year resolution .

9. What would your new year's resolution for 2008 be?
To be healthy and happy with my love ones and learn more about my own religion.

10. Name 5 people you would like to tag.
Rudy (sape lagi), Bakawali (you must do this one, ok!), Idlan, YMY and Norzu

Ok...dah cukup dah. SD , thank you for helping me to remember all those good memories- and no more tags, ok!
I'm not going to open my laptop till tomorrow.

Ok people - Happy New Year to everybody. Hope 2008 will be a great year for all of us, Insya Allah.

Just remember, don't drink and drive.

Final tag for 2007

Hmmm....Thank you to Seadeamon, I'm tagged again. Its kind of interesting actually as I would have never thought about all these questions. And I think officially, this is my last tag for the year.(unless somebody crazy wants to tag me again in the next less than 24 hours before 2008 says hi)


1. What is your blogging name?
Well, I got the name 'Spena' when I was in high school and went I started blogging, I guess nobody else will have the same name - so I decided to use it.

2. When did you start blogging, the exact date?
It was 21st May 2005. It was when I was on holidays in Notts- at my brother's place while babysitting my nephew.

3. What was your first title?
'Today in history....my first and ever blog.' Well, actually I didn't think I would continue updating till today. I started it to fill in some time and had nothing to do. I also learnt how to come up with this blog from my sist, Faiez all the way across the continent! I just noticed that even on the 1st day I started blogging, I had 3 posts altogether!


4. Which posting you feel is the best post so far?
Is there such thing as the best post for me to decide? I don't really care, or should I?

5. Who promote/source of inspiration for you to blog?
It is all about my mood, my feelings and my experience. The last time, I usually write more when I'm sad or upset. But now, I noticed, I will write even if its something that makes me happy, especially when it involves food. ;-)

6. When do you usually post entries?
When I feel like talking to somebody and I know nobody would want to listen or the are not free to talk to me.

7. Where would you prefer to be when you are blogging?
No preference. Anywhere, anytime if I have my laptop with me and there's wifi. But definitely not in the toilet (not like you Seademon)

8. Have you met other bloggers? Who?
I'm glad I've met new great friends like Guile, Seademon and Bakawali through my blog. Well, I'm not that adventurous actually to meet new people. But I guess things happen for a reason.These people can make me laugh!

9. How many entries you made in a month? Average.
It depends...I don't think I really care about this.

10. Would you reveal your face or your family in your blog? Why?
Why not? Just incase if I die, they'll know who my family is and who to approach. It's a small world.

11. Would you promote your friends to blog? Why?
Not that I intentionally to promote but I did say that it is good to blog. And 1 or 2 have started or continued writing after that. It just fills in our time and for some like me, releases a lot of stress.

12. Would you feel restless/guilty concious/incomplete if you didn't blog for a month?
It's better be for a good reason...maybe if Habibi's here for a month to distract me then yes, I will not feel anything if I don't blog. I've done it for 11 days the most. But most times - I think I would turn crazy if I don't. This blog is where I release all my feelings and stress.

13. Define blogging.
For me? Just write whatever I want to.Its all mine. It's definitely my best friend.


Who shall I tag next? Let's see the list..

Rudy
K.Shana
Esty
Dilla
Arn
Faiez

Pre new year celebration

Past few days, I have thought a lot on my new year resolution. One of it, I would be lying if I say that I'm not worried about my weight. So, it would definitely be my 'keep fit' program. (I refuse to call it a diet, ok!).

And, what a way to end 2007 and to start 2008. Location was at K.Ana's kitchen, I taught her how to do the Oreo cheesecake (the last time I made it was a year ago for a friend).
And today morning after work, again I was at her place to help her to prepare the Triffle. Both were for lunch today, accompanied by her famous lasagna for the main course. There goes my resolution.....

Below are some pics taken. I forgot to take the preparation of the cheesecake last night.

p/s: Since I learnt how to make the Oreo cheesecake, I've stopped buying it from SecRep. I think mine tastes much better! (perasan...)

After one year, it's here again!!

Yesss!!!!! It is back. I had to wait for one long year for it to come back.

My favourite prosperity burger from McD is back in town.

And there goes my so called 'new year resolution'.

p/s: The value meal set comes with green tea as the drink. At least something is healthy...

I'm not crazy.......maybe at times

Some of the the 'crazy' things that I've done in 2007:

- I got to know new friends from the internet and meet them personally. This was sometime in January. I wouldn't call it as 'dates' as it was just a once or maximum, twice meet. I still remember one of my gf advised me, "go to public places, ok?" .... I just wanted to meet some new friends. And I ended up meeting 2 s.africans, an iranian and a french. I've stopped doing this in February.

-I went all the way to Cork,Ireland in March to meet somebody whom I just met only once last year. I know, I know, it was dangerous but I guess, it goes back to our 'nawaitu' and hope for the best. If we don't have any 'bad' or 'naughty' intentions, insya Allah it would work out fine. Both of us were taking some risks, I guess. And alhamdulillah, it went well for both of us.

-I stepped out of my comfort zone again. This time, I sent in a 6 pages 'feedback' letter to some people so that something can be improved in the office.

-And....I fell in love again. Something that , if anybody were to ask me 2 years ago, I would say no. Or no way. Or its impossible to find love anymore. But I did. I am in love with this guy who fell in love with me first, and never give up on me. He is so optimistic and always believe things will be ok for us. And he's not even here.


When I think about what had happened to me, a friend of mine said something which always stick in my head;
"Our lives in this world are just temporary. It is just lent to us by Allah. We have to make the best out of it (with HIS guidance) and at times, we have to accept it either as a test or as a reward from HIM. More importantly, nothing is permanent - nobody can own anybody else 'permanently'. What we need to do , is to go back to the basic teachings and accept it wholeheartedly. And when we do this, we do not need to pretend. We do not need to pretend that we are happy, but we are not. We do not have to pretend we love the person, but we actually don't. We will just be ourselves and and accept it."

As for now, Alhamdulillah, I am happy, I am in love and not pretending. (only at times, my PMS will take over my mood....argghh.) . I am going back to basics which I know a lot of people will not understand me as they might think I am crazy. I just need to have faith. This is my decision. To another person who was my good friend sometime back(if you read this), please understand that I am not like anybody else. We've travelled together, we've worked together, we've had fun together. I'll cherish that. But I am not like you.I am different. I am not able to follow your footsteps, your ways. If it is because of my decision it makes you upset and angry with me, and you refuse to be my friend, I'm sorry. There are also some things that I didn't agree with what you did, but I didn't say anything as I know we are adults and we know the consequences.

Maybe, one day our paths will cross again.

It says.....

And yesterday, my horoscope read:

There's nothing holding you back from doing all the things you wanted to do before but were afraid to try. You have lots of things going on, but you handle them all with ease today. If anything, you should take on new projects if they become available. As for tonight, the only person who may be able to put up with you is you.


How I hate to admit it is true.....

Well, as of yesterday, I've completed my part.Now, I just have to wait for the results.

Messed up plans

.......messing up , its what makes a person.
Its how we learn, where we find joy
In the things we don't plan for
the things we never see coming.....

What we want,
is exactly what we need
but sometimes.....
Sometimes what we need
is a new plan.

Currently, I do have a plan.
And I also have another plan if incase the original plan doesn't work.

This 'thing' which is part of my plan now, is making me stressed up and worried.

Too often, the thing you want most

is the one thing you can't have

My gift

Well, last year Santa came 'secretly' to visit but this year, he decided not to visit us and I was not expecting anything. However, some people are so sweet and nice, and they decide to give their colleagues Xmas gifts.

Well-wrapped......with a simple designed wrapper. I was warned to only open it at home.

This was what happened after waiting patiently to reach home. I just tore the whole thing.Unlike the usual me who likes to recycle the wrappers.

A sweet and lovely gift from a sweet colleague.I'm touched! Thanks Lilian! I love it so much.

p/s: Does this mean I have to use this in the office and replace my old MC mug?

My dream. Our dream.

I'm a bit tired and exhausted mentally right now. I need to rush and have been busy in doing something which is very, very important for my future. For our future. It's my dream. It's our dream. It is not easy to do it all alone and time is not on our side. The due date is on the 4th of January and with 2 public holidays in between and the weekends, it is a bit tight.
I can only pray that everything is going to be ok. Insya Allah.
As usual, being me, I am really, really hoping for it to happen, but I don't want to be frustrated if it doesn't happen. Currently, Alhamdulillah, I feel ok.
Let's see how things go until the 4th.
This is another step for me to move on and I always believe things always happen for a reason.
If it doesn't happen, I can only hope it is for the better.

p/s: tomorrow is one of the public holiday that my company observe without needing to take leave. Thank god. Basketball in the morning and lunch with family later.

7 days left

Only 7 days left,
for 2007 to leave us
and 2008 to welcome us
we never know what is in store for us next year,
that's for sure
other than the challenges our jobs would offer
but one thing I know
Habibi promised last night
he will always be there
Insya Allah.


Hmm...maybe I should book the date 08/08/08 for something special.

Xmas with my colleagues

Xmas is just 2 days away. It is one of the festival that we celebrate in Malaysia. Not that I celebrate it, but when you have majority of your colleagues celebrating it, why not join the fun? Moreover, we are in staying in a multi-cultural country, right?

Like Muslims who celebrate Hari Raya, I always feel good when on the raya day itself, watching the muslims from all walks of life, wearing traditional dresses for men and women visitng each other. The same with Xmas, it feels different when you see a Xmas tree decorated nicely. It just gives me the feeling of lucky to be able to celebrate it together with my other friends.
And this year,one of my colleague invited us to her house last night.
Alan and Sam concentrating on their satay. They looked really hungry.
The host, Kav1ta, trying to get some ice from the poly-box.

The host entertaining the guests. Pr1ya and her bf and Alan.
The host again. Busy 'refilling' in the ice-box...
Dawson serving drinks to the rest. I think that was only a 'trick'. he eventually finished up 1/2 the bottle!
Me and Edzre*n - feeling really stuffed after all those satay, mutton, rice..etc...
The excellent chocolate cake with chocolate topping. Delicious.

The cake that me, Edzre*n and Alan bought. We didn't know what to bring, we brought the carrot slice from SecRep and told the host to serve it - buruk siku...hehehe...
There was also minced pie. Usually it is made from meat but this one is purely from fruits. The only issue was , it has rum in it. And I can't eat it.She better make one without alcohol next time.

Sam was volunteering to help out with the cleaning of the tables. Just because they wanted to start the card game - not for any other reasons.
And the whole gang was playing. The 3 of us found an excuse to leave as we didn't know how to play - well, more of lazy and sleepy actually. After all those good food, my eyes were heavy.

In the car driving back, I also found out that because of the satay, one of my tooth broke! Dang! I have to claim reimbursement fromt the host!

Merry Xmas to all my Christian friends out there.

I am legend?

Oh God!! I should have read the review before going for this movie.From the billboard on the federal highway, when I saw the title of the movie and knew that Will Smith is the main actor, it has attracted my attention to watch it - only it is because of Will Smith.

Usually I thought he would either be in a drama kind or a cop kind of storyline. Unfortunately due to the wrong assumptions, I ended up screaming , my heart was pumping like I just ran for a 100m sprint and driving all the way back home imagining what if the same thing happens to me .What do you expect as it was 2.30am and I had to from Cineleisure all the way to Shah Alam and the road was totally empty! Not only that, because of the Raya Haji, my neighbourhood was empty and quiet too!!

The title does not even say anything about zombies.

Next time, I will need to read the movie review.

A night out with 2Fs(food and friends)

Yesterday, as everybody knows was Hari Raya Qurban/Aidil Adha. Usually, there will be less people in the office as almost all the muslim (except me) will apply for leave and return to their hometown to celebrate.

But yesterday was different. None of them applied any leave this time. Which includes 'mak minah' who is pregnant .I'm surprised actually. But then maybe they have their own reasons why not to take leave this time round.

After work, together with some of them, we went to Murni for our 'supper' ritual. There were 5 of us. Out of 5, 3 of us were still clad in our traditional clothes :-baju melayu and me in my baju kurung.

Here we were, the 3 'crazy' people who were still in our raya clothes at 1am last night. Thank god the chinese colleage didn't put on her baju kurung too. Not surprise if she did that as during deepavali - we did wear indian traditional clothes to office. We noticed everybody was looking at us when we walked from end to end to find an empty table.
Rudy and his big laugh - looks a bit like Aziz Satar's laugh in Ali Baba dan 40 Penyamun...hehehe
Alan controlling his 'macho-ness'.....yes..Alan is still single. Anybody interested, contact me, ok?
This is Yohan1z the rapper...we call him the rapper as in the office he's know as yo..yo...yo....
And this was what they ordered. The usual 'Tembikai Special' has ran out, so they had to settle with this mango special. I tasted a bit - the mango tasted original!!
And I had this - as suggested by Dilla , the chicken maryland is excellent. Tapi kecik lah...tak cukup.

The guys had this 'Mee Raja' other than the usual favourite, Roti Hawaii which was posted earlier.

It was a fun night out, as usual. But if I was given the choice, obviously I would love it if Habibi was here to join. ;-(

Today, early in the morning, I was already having my breakfast at IKEA as K.Ana wanted my help to get something from there. Then I rushed to meet my agent.

Alhamdulillah, the 1st step is done. Then reality sets in. I am scared. I have never done this and handle this kind of situation alone. I'm not sure what will happen next, how am I supposed to overcome the next challenge. I know it is not going to be easy and I told Habibi that. Hearing Habibi's soothing voice and advise over the phone calms me down a bit. Especially when he assures me he will be helping me to go through any obstacle.

I am hoping, to get this done, Insya Allah.

p/s: I really wish you are here with me Habibi to help me go through this.

Wish

2 days ago, a friend asked me;

A: The new year is coming soon. Have you fulfilled all your wishes?
Me: What? How can I?
A: Why?
Me: How can I fulfill all my wishes as I keep coming up with new wishes without fail!

Stand by me

There are some things we just can't decide on.
There are just some things that need time to be solved or answered.
As of now, I am just going with the flow.
I'm just letting time to decide on what's next.
Or when will it happens.
As of now, I'm going to sit back, stay calm and enjoy my ride.

None of us knows.
It might be next month.
It might be next 6 months.
Or even a year.
Or more.

But one thing for sure
He promised
He is going to stand by me
All the way
And try his best to make it happen
Insya Allah.

I took the risk.
And he answered it.

I love you, Habibi.

p/s: Thanks to all my friends who are concerned...I'm ok. Experience teaches me to be strong. (and a bit 'heartless')

My qurban

In the next few days, we will be celebrating Eidul Adha - or Hari Raya Qurban. Well, this year I will be working as it falls on a Thursday. Last year, I was lucky as it was on a Saturday and I managed to get a cheap AA flight back to Terengganu where the celebration is much more fun.

I've been thinking. I did not manage to get a share in joining my family to do the 'qurban'.However, I am thinking to do a different qurban this year.

I am going to let go of my precious one. You know , like the one in the Lord of the Rings...."my precioussss"...

Yes, he is my precious, my love. But I don't think he thinks of me the same way. He will never be able to do it. I want to let him focus on his 'real' love ones. I want to let him go.

Why am I doing this? My explanation is simple, you cannot promise me anything. You cannot guarantee me anything. And it is not fair for me to take your attention away from your family, even though if it is only 10%. And more over, since you cannot decide, what does that makes me then?

The important thing is, I do not want to steal you from your family.
And I do not want to be an invisible person too.

The decision makes me sad.
But I always believe, with the right niat, it makes me feel relief. As I know the decision made is not for me.
It is for you and your family.

It was a MEAT day

Thanks to this excellent cook which we import from Indon..ooopps I mean BP, we had a great time on Saturday. We had dinner at Jazz's place and the theme was ALL MEAT.

Check out the apron . She requested to take her pic with the whole apron.Hehehe...

As appetizer, we had beef stew. Excellent.

Then we had this 'Spaghetti Olio' Sedap giler! With beef bacon in it.

Then this is the best part...the marinated lamb chop. A whole big container ready to be fried.

And then, time to fry. Yes baby...I still remember the smell of it.

Yes! Now it is ready. All set to be served and eaten the barbarian way.....by hands.

And here we are all the girls, enjoying our food while catching up on everybody's life for the past few months. And a dinner will not be complete without a dessert. Rina got this American Brownies from SecRep. Thanks girls.

With a great company and good food, it definitely made my day.

Is it black? No, its GREY

I'm in the GREY mood tonight.

Yes! I feel like watching Grey's Anatomy tonight.

I just bought the 3rd Season from HP when I was in JB 2 weeks back.



I better get the tissue box near me......who knows I might need it. Let me rephrase that.....I always need it everytime watching the series. Yeah..yeah...I am a very sensitive person.

I shall dream of my guy tonight.......

I mean Habibi...... ;-)

p/s: The effect of putting his photo up as wallpaper - cair! Wa cakap lu! Its definitely a stress theraphy.

Rain, rain go away

I have not been feeling well for the past one week until now. As of now, I have running nose, a bit of cough and athsma on and off. Especially when I'm too tired by the end of the day. I will have difficulties in breathing and when I cough, the whole chest hurts.

The best option to make it feel better is to take Ventolin pills. But after about 10mnts when the effect kicks in, I can't even write or hold anything. At times, I can't even type. My hands will be shaking. I just need to lie down or if its in the office, sit back and not do anything.

A friend I chat with last night told me to go back to my mom's place temporarily until I feel better. Its dangerous, he said. I said no.I'm always on my own and I have my own house. Until when am I going to go back to mom's place everytime I fall sick? What if she's not around? I'm already prepared for the worst. I think my blogger friends know the drill - just incase I don't wake up.

Well, no point of lying to myself. Even though I got the boys and the girls last week to make me feel busy, I miss Habibi, terribly.

And that makes me feel worst right now.Not spending 'physical' time together is bad, no time to spare talking to me , is worst.

And one of the causes of athsma is when the mind is emotionally unstable and the rainy weather makes it worst.

"O" anybody?

Last week, I went out with some friends. Actually we just wanted to get some DVDs and to eat and talk. After the 2 main plan has been completed, we were so 'gatal' to test our 'eye-sight'

There were 3 of us including me. We all did the test. I went first and the guy said I had excellent sight as I only need 25% (?) power . Then when it was their turns, he said - "Wah! 0%! You lagi perfect?". What did he mean by that? I think he was trying to make me feel better as the other 2 had PERFECT eye sight. Cis! No wonder I can't shoot properly .
One of us was so obsesive with Oakley's product. She had bought a few before this and love the designs and was eyeing for another one - provided she can get a sponsor.
Recognise the logo on the box? Hehehe....
Yes! This is mine. I ended up buying one too. The guy really gave a good price to us. My first ever Oakley.